you had to be there

a note on the format of this blog

2005-05-26T22:57:00.000-10:00

this blog is mainly an archive so I post each conversation under the date it happened, I am beginning with the earliest archived conversations and working towards the present day. I update the blog twice a week and hope to be up to date soon.

horticulture bob

2005-01-20T23:59:00.000-10:00

illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:24:06 PM): I'll fly away
wild4u2crazy4u (8:24:14 PM): will you?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:24:45 PM): when I die, hallelujah, by and by
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:24:49 PM): I'll fly away
wild4u2crazy4u (8:25:06 PM): what i need is the edited version of my book from my editor
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:25:19 PM): who's your editor again?
wild4u2crazy4u (8:25:28 PM): lisa, my cuz
wild4u2crazy4u (8:25:41 PM): did you get the depth piece?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:25:42 PM): oh, and has she finished editing yet?
wild4u2crazy4u (8:25:58 PM): no, she needs to write her one book for school
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:26:36 PM): hmmmm, maybe you should find a new editor, no offense to her of course
wild4u2crazy4u (8:26:43 PM): why?
wild4u2crazy4u (8:27:25 PM): reading the reply to the critizism post ?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:27:28 PM): what exactly is her proffesion
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:27:32 PM): yep
wild4u2crazy4u (8:28:36 PM): she doesn't have one but she majors in engligh literature i think (something like that)
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:28:56 PM): oh. wow this guy is really good
wild4u2crazy4u (8:29:09 PM): yea
wild4u2crazy4u (8:29:25 PM): get my depth piece yet?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:29:38 PM): uhhmmm nope
wild4u2crazy4u (8:30:10 PM): i dunno if you read it yet
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:30:25 PM): I don tink sew
wild4u2crazy4u (8:30:45 PM): neither do i
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:30:52 PM): do you have a firewall, I can't recieve it
wild4u2crazy4u (8:30:59 PM): i dunno
wild4u2crazy4u (8:31:05 PM): i'll email it
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:31:10 PM): kewl
wild4u2crazy4u (8:32:36 PM): gmail
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:32:48 PM): ok
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:35:27 PM): my crackhead uncle is here
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:35:48 PM): I better make sure he doesn't steal my compters
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:35:51 PM): brb
wild4u2crazy4u (8:36:01 PM): ok hb
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:37:36 PM): back
wild4u2crazy4u (8:37:43 PM): wb
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:38:15 PM): heh?
wild4u2crazy4u (8:38:24 PM): welcome back
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:38:35 PM): oh....and hb?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:38:39 PM): wait
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:38:46 PM): I know this one...
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:38:50 PM): uhhhmmmm
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:38:55 PM): .............
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:39:00 PM):
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:39:04 PM): ...........
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:39:14 PM): harry buttocks
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:39:26 PM): no no no thats not it uhmmm....
wild4u2crazy4u (8:39:26 PM): lol
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:39:39 PM): let's see uh....
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:39:56 PM): horticulture bob
wild4u2crazy4u (8:40:01 PM): lol no
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:40:03 PM): ok, I'm lost
wild4u2crazy4u (8:40:07 PM): hurry back
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:40:21 PM): oh. right. yeah. I knew that.
wild4u2crazy4u (8:40:42 PM): hey i wanna hit my bag a few ok
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:40:49 PM): why?
wild4u2crazy4u (8:41:23 PM): cause i just read the piece i sent you
wild4u2crazy4u (8:41:45 PM): that, and the critizism crap
wild4u2crazy4u (8:41:51 PM): ok?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:41:53 PM): I don't post new poems until the old ones get at least two replies and I post at least one reply to someone elses, sound like a good policy to you?
wild4u2crazy4u (8:42:05 PM): yes
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:42:17 PM): why doesnt that werk for any other forum
wild4u2crazy4u (8:42:24 PM): dunno
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:42:55 PM): bastards, cockbiting motherfucker
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:42:59 PM): s
wild4u2crazy4u (8:43:09 PM): i'm gooma go hit ok
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:43:20 PM): hey ok me too
wild4u2crazy4u (8:43:24 PM): ok
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:50:58 PM): I wanna tell you about Texas radio and the Big Beat
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:51:25 PM): it comes out of the Virginia swamps cool and slow with plenty of percision
wild4u2crazy4u (8:51:35 PM): really?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:52:07 PM): with a back beat narrow and hard to master
wild4u2crazy4u (8:52:15 PM): coo
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:52:37 PM): some call it heavenly in it's brilliance
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:52:51 PM): others, mean and ruthful of the western dream
wild4u2crazy4u (8:52:52 PM): sounds brilliant
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:53:24 PM): I love the friends I have gathered here on this thin raft
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:53:43 PM): we have constucted pyramids in honor of our escaping
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:53:56 PM): this is the land where the pharoh died
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:54:03 PM): ok. I'm done
wild4u2crazy4u (8:54:32 PM): cool
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:54:45 PM): Jim wrote that one
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:55:03 PM): the negros in the forests, brightly feathered
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:55:22 PM): they are saying forget the night, live with us in forests of azure
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:55:53 PM): out here in the perimeter there is no stars
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:56:04 PM): out here we is stoned, immaculate
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:56:23 PM): sorry
wild4u2crazy4u (8:56:29 PM): sorry?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:56:52 PM): for going off like that
wild4u2crazy4u (8:57:25 PM): thats ok
wild4u2crazy4u (8:57:32 PM): its beatiful
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:57:38 PM): I guess no one is browsing the poetry forums except me and postmodernlove
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:57:45 PM): really?
wild4u2crazy4u (8:58:11 PM): yes
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:58:29 PM): I thought you didn't like my poetry
wild4u2crazy4u (8:59:19 PM): when did i say that
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (8:59:37 PM): you didn't I guess I just assumed....
wild4u2crazy4u (8:59:55 PM): don't
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:00:11 PM): never again
wild4u2crazy4u (9:00:16 PM): lol good
wild4u2crazy4u (9:00:30 PM): did you get the depth piece?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:00:34 PM): yes boss
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:00:36 PM): yes
wild4u2crazy4u (9:00:41 PM): lol
wild4u2crazy4u (9:00:44 PM): good
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:04:51 PM): w...uh....hmmmm....where...uh....where did that come from?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:05:03 PM): a while ago
wild4u2crazy4u (9:05:14 PM): what do you think?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:06:04 PM): WWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOO...............and..........YEAAAAAAAA........
AHHHHHHHH...and.......aaaaaahhhahhahahha yeah.....spooky
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:06:18 PM): good typos
wild4u2crazy4u (9:06:29 PM): what do you mean?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:06:51 PM): well there are typos but it is good
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:07:08 PM): soooooo good, typos
wild4u2crazy4u (9:07:21 PM): ok
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:07:23 PM): like good news, bad news
wild4u2crazy4u (9:07:29 PM): ok
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:07:47 PM): oooooorrrr.... good typos
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:08:00 PM): hehehe
wild4u2crazy4u (9:08:03 PM): i'm messed up
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:08:22 PM): sqwe all awr
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:08:47 PM): he I'm the illegitamate son of a rock and roll star
wild4u2crazy4u (9:08:58 PM): but i'm really messed up
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:10:02 PM): I think you should take consolation in the fact that no one is more messed up than me, I certainly do....
wild4u2crazy4u (9:10:22 PM): l..o..l...
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:10:52 PM): but as to your being messed up, ahhh....well...hmmm, this too shall pass
wild4u2crazy4u (9:11:03 PM): no it won't
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:11:21 PM): or..... you'll learn to hide it better
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:11:40 PM): orrr.....you'll take a flying leap of a really high rock
wild4u2crazy4u (9:11:59 PM): better? better? I hid it for two fucking years, i just decided that i trusted you enough to share!!!!!!!!!
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:12:03 PM): hmmmm.....that sounds nice, not for you I mean
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:12:52 PM): sorry, a bit whimsical right now, bad moment, good thing it's gone, ready to be serious, sorry sorry sorry sorry
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:13:06 PM): sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:13:35 PM):
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:13:44 PM): your not that messed up.....
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:13:48 PM): are you?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:13:55 PM): i am
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:14:16 PM): think you're going crazy?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:14:24 PM): no
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:14:36 PM): hmmmm....how do you feel?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:15:19 PM): um
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:18:36 PM): got kicked off
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:19:21 PM): sorry
wild4u2crazy4u (9:19:28 PM): ok
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:19:51 PM): I don't understand
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:19:58 PM): you
wild4u2crazy4u (9:20:10 PM): course not, which is kind of weird
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:20:18 PM): how so?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:20:32 PM): just is
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:20:40 PM): hmmmm
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:25:31 PM): can
wild4u2crazy4u (9:25:46 PM): can?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:25:51 PM): i ask you something, a little off the subject
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:25:57 PM): sorry
wild4u2crazy4u (9:26:03 PM): huh
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:26:36 PM): can i ask you something, that may seem a little weird
wild4u2crazy4u (9:26:45 PM): ok
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:28:24 PM): uhhmmm...I'm not sure how to begin this but, being brutally honest, who am I? at least who do you think I am, how would you describe me, as a person?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:29:04 PM): brutally, soul-crushingly honest
wild4u2crazy4u (9:29:48 PM): you are, as an idividual, you, how you choose to be you, how you are made, and how you are affected by life, you're Jess, no other way to describe you
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:31:14 PM): uhhhmmmm......how do you mean 'no other way to describe you'? who is Jess? I'm not sure sometimes
wild4u2crazy4u (9:31:52 PM): you are the way you are
wild4u2crazy4u (9:32:00 PM): its hard to explain
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:34:25 PM): hmmm...the way I am...is that good or bad?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:34:32 PM): good
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:37:26 PM): good. well, I guess since I don't even know the question I should be satisfied with any answer I get, right?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:37:41 PM): lol yea
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:40:19 PM): hmmmm....well.....whatcha thinkin about?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:40:45 PM): nothing, playing a game, before i was thinking about how me and mike met
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:41:01 PM): oh kewl
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:56:57 PM): I'm tired of blood and over priced bubble gum
wild4u2crazy4u (9:57:02 PM): i get to take pills the rest of my fucking life, whoop di fucking doo
wild4u2crazy4u (9:57:03 PM): lol
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:57:55 PM): hmmm....might I ask why you can't talk o a psychiatrist
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:58:00 PM): *to
wild4u2crazy4u (9:58:08 PM): i do!!!!!
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (9:59:59 PM): ok, why doesn't it help
wild4u2crazy4u (10:00:20 PM): how the fuck should i know?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:02:08 PM): hmmmm....the victim complex
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:05:54 PM): no, don't think so
wild4u2crazy4u (10:06:05 PM): ok yea...
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:06:14 PM): i don't think the pills are helping
wild4u2crazy4u (10:06:23 PM): lol no
wild4u2crazy4u (10:06:30 PM): wanna know something
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:08:12 PM): yes
wild4u2crazy4u (10:08:18 PM): this isn't even close to the worst
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:08:31 PM): what was the worst like?
wild4u2crazy4u (10:09:02 PM): a fierce hurricane in the head
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:09:58 PM): have you ever had no head
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:10:07 PM): thats interesting
wild4u2crazy4u (10:10:12 PM): ok
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:10:26 PM): so what is this like
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:10:42 PM): a small thunderstorm?
wild4u2crazy4u (10:10:54 PM): a big one
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:11:06 PM): with hail?
wild4u2crazy4u (10:11:07 PM): all compacted into your small head
wild4u2crazy4u (10:11:27 PM): and life doesn't seem worth it
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:11:57 PM): hmmmm....so you're saying this is all a chemical imbalance?
wild4u2crazy4u (10:12:07 PM): yes
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:12:09 PM): I think you need new chemicals
wild4u2crazy4u (10:12:20 PM): roflmao
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:12:31 PM): a complete life-force transfusion
wild4u2crazy4u (10:12:35 PM): i wish it were that simple
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:12:49 PM): they only do that in foreign countries
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:12:57 PM): and very expensive too
wild4u2crazy4u (10:13:09 PM): damn
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:13:18 PM): yeah, I know...
wild4u2crazy4u (10:14:56 PM): i think i'll take a show
wild4u2crazy4u (10:14:57 PM): er
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:20:31 PM): so it's all chemicals.......and they gave you pills for this........and I take it they've already upped the dosage eh?.......and now they aren't working.........and they're prolly gonna up the dosage again or give you something else altogether or give you something else in addition to what you are already taking.........and after a while that won't work......and they'll do the same thing all over again.........and soon your body will be so totally packed with drugs and chemicals that you won't even be able to feel any kind of emotion without wondering if it's real or if it's the drugs........then I'm sure they'll come up with some revolutionary new drug and of course they tell you it'll fix all that other stuff......and your body will become one big toxic wasteland........
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:21:09 PM): and your soul will become chemical.....and you will become one of them.
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:22:56 PM): did I get all that right?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:23:44 PM): hmmmm.....one hell of a way to live
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:27:40 PM): odd....I've got no thunderstorms but my life doesn't seem worth living.....but then....it never has.
wild4u2crazy4u (10:44:59 PM): that about sums it up
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:53:31 PM): oh. ok.
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:54:24 PM): you know there are alternatives
wild4u2crazy4u (10:54:35 PM): such as?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:54:50 PM): it seems like you think pills are the only option
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:55:07 PM): and you don't take conventional therepy seriously
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:55:27 PM): I think thats why talking to a shrink doesn't help you
wild4u2crazy4u (10:55:53 PM): lol no maybe it's the fact that i see him once a month
wild4u2crazy4u (10:56:15 PM): and it doesn't help that they keep switchin my counselors at school
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:56:17 PM): and why do you only see him once a month
wild4u2crazy4u (10:56:30 PM): caz he's only in hawaii once a month
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:56:55 PM): I think you need a new head shrinker
wild4u2crazy4u (10:57:29 PM): everyone thinks that i'm doing well, which i am
wild4u2crazy4u (10:57:38 PM): i'ts only th evenings
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:57:39 PM): you are?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:57:55 PM): why the evenings
wild4u2crazy4u (10:58:11 PM): the drugs wear of lmao
wild4u2crazy4u (10:58:15 PM): off*
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:58:57 PM): so they'll up your dosage
wild4u2crazy4u (10:59:04 PM): they did
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (10:59:40 PM): there you go, all the solutions in one little (or in your case big) pill
wild4u2crazy4u (11:00:03 PM): are you trying to make me feel worse?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (11:00:31 PM): sorry, I'm just opposed to the pill thing
wild4u2crazy4u (11:01:08 PM): so wat's there to talk about in conventional theropy?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (11:02:07 PM): maybe if you understood the feelings and where they came from you would be able to prevent them or stop them
wild4u2crazy4u (11:02:20 PM): roflmao
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (11:02:40 PM): that was funny?
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (11:02:55 PM): let me rephrase that
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (11:03:52 PM): if you could understand those feelings and where they come from you would be able to come to terms with them and feel a different way.
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (11:04:07 PM): no maybes
wild4u2crazy4u (11:04:11 PM): roflmao
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (11:05:27 PM): That is exactly why you are utterly incapable of anything better than this poor, unhappy existence you call your life.
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (11:05:59 PM): go ahead and take your pills, I hope they're good company.
wild4u2crazy4u (11:10:44 PM): you know what jess, the solution to your problem isn't necessarily the solution to others, sometimes people nedd different solutions, you know, you're just lik all those people always trying to help but not knowing how, you only have more of an understanding of what i'm going through. And i do not hold theropy theropy in contempt. I don't understand why i thought you'd br different, it was just a illusion created by the fact that you experienced something similar. Be sure that this is the last time this subject will never come up again. I just lost another leg, thank god it wasn't as big as Sam
illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (11:23:54 PM): therapy wasn't the solution to my problem, Rene'e, and I never gave you any reason to believe that. All I was saying was that you not, as you so beautifully put it 'roflmao' but consider it seriously. And believe me when I say that you have no earthly idea of what I went through and am still going through, and what you are going through now does not even come close to similarity with it. My comment was directed at your negativity towards anything you don't understand, not your reluctance to believe therapy would be the solution to all you problems, which in itself is a completely ridiculous idea that I didn't suggest anyway. I was suggesting that you come to understand your feelings and where they came from in order to rid yourself of them. illegitamatesonofarocknrollstar (11:31:09 PM): That, Rene'e, was the solution to my problem, and it in no way involved therapy. I suggested therapy as a means to acheiving that solution because it would be a more appropriale way for you, instead of the way I chose, which I do not think you could or would want to attempt. Then perhaps you would be able to stand on your own legs, and not need others to hold you up. Perhaps now, without any 'legs' you might be able to attempt te solution I suggested and have been suggesting for a long time now. And as I'm sure you will probably not read this, or disregard it if you do, at the risk of sounding condescending, I pray that you find it in yourself to try what I suggested and find peace. I say these things with all the love and respect I hold for you, my oldest and dearest friend.

There is a tuna fish tin where the earth used to be

2005-01-19T23:59:00.000-10:00

raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (1:40:40 PM): I think I'm getting better at these social commentary poems
wild4u2crazy4u (1:41:00 PM): really
wild4u2crazy4u (1:41:05 PM): call me
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (1:41:14 PM): where are ewe
wild4u2crazy4u (1:41:22 PM): home
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (1:41:32 PM): what, didn't go to school
wild4u2crazy4u (1:41:37 PM): i did
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (1:41:52 PM): ooohhh, yeah, my bad I forgot
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (1:42:19 PM): ok hold on I gotta get offline in a few anyway, I'll call ewe then?
wild4u2crazy4u (1:42:26 PM): ok
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (1:43:15 PM): kewl, just gotta post my new social commentary
wild4u2crazy4u (1:43:32 PM): ok
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:01:14 PM): this is a great poem written by this guy on the other poetry forum I go to...
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:01:51 PM): There is a tuna fish tin where the earth used to be
The terrain is flat beneath the expanse where tins pile up and around and the easy way out is to peel back the whole shapeless mass from one’s line of vision. To choose just one tin of fish from the planet of a thousand brands takes a quick, yet focused snatch. Back home, mayonnaise caps the mixing-bowl and the recycle-bin overflows with lids and lives I never dared live: my stretch to the top shelf that sent a pyramid plummeting to a shopgirl’s skull; my half-hour indecision between quantity and quality and the subtle fudge of the final judgement.raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:01:55 PM): The tin I bagged in seconds gawps from the table at the centre of the universe, unknown to itself, halfway between the woulds and could-have-beens of someone else’s life. I wrap my cold, eternal present between two rags of bread and consider biting. Not quite yet.
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:08:51 PM):
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:08:55 PM): did you like it
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:10:11 PM): http://poetry.tetto.org/ this is a pretty good site, perfect for you since you don't do poetry very often, they only let you post two poems every seven days.
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:16:24 PM): well gtg, I'll be online l8tr

liscence to kill

2005-01-18T23:59:00.000-10:00

raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:33:47 PM): i am invisible hehehe
wild4u2crazy4u (7:33:57 PM): eeek!
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:34:03 PM): ooooohhhhh I miss you
wild4u2crazy4u (7:34:08 PM): GUESS WAT
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:34:14 PM): WAT!?!?!?!?
wild4u2crazy4u (7:34:20 PM): i got me lisence
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:34:33 PM): what? you've got lice?
wild4u2crazy4u (7:34:45 PM): lisence
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:34:57 PM): hehe jus kiddin
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:35:04 PM): YAAAAAAYYY!!!!!!!
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:35:09 PM): was the test hard
wild4u2crazy4u (7:35:15 PM): nah
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:35:43 PM): did you drive by yerself yet? didja kill anybody? or bang anything?
wild4u2crazy4u (7:35:57 PM): yes no no
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:37:10 PM): WHAT??? you didn't run nobody over yet??? I can't believe that!! You'll never get no points that way.
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:37:21 PM): ha, that was a double negative
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:38:37 PM): or was it? I can never tell
wild4u2crazy4u (7:38:46 PM): no
wild4u2crazy4u (7:40:28 PM): you have my book right? open it and tell me the last sentence
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:40:29 PM): lets see, you'll Never get No points, yeah I think that is, cause technically that statement would mean you Will get points but it this case it is used to say you will, cancelling each other out
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:41:40 PM): The four of them continued talking as they made their way to retrieving Twoubit from the fountain. Tanya started enjoying Kaz’s company. He was witty, smart, and talkative, reminding Tanya much of Catón.
wild4u2crazy4u (7:42:03 PM): i know where that is by heart!
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:42:22 PM): well, you wrote it
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:42:31 PM): I'm proud of you.
wild4u2crazy4u (7:42:37 PM): lol
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:42:53 PM): I replied to your poem on BBS
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:43:11 PM): well actually a few people did.
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:43:23 PM): all good I might ad
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:43:25 PM): *d
wild4u2crazy4u (7:43:31 PM): i gotta send you one of my favorite scenes
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:43:51 PM): kewl
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:44:40 PM): I'm home alone
wild4u2crazy4u (7:45:02 PM):
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:45:18 PM): my dad went to oahu to have knee surgery
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:45:21 PM): brb
wild4u2crazy4u (7:45:54 PM): ok
wild4u2crazy4u (7:55:33 PM): how's the picture that you have of me?
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:56:32 PM): I don't know what happened to it, I think the battery of my camera died and it got lost
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:58:58 PM): I took other pisctures with it though after funking peice of shit
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (7:59:25 PM): yep thats how I spell pictures now, pisctures
wild4u2crazy4u (7:59:52 PM): lol
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:00:09 PM): i think it gives it more character
wild4u2crazy4u (8:00:12 PM): mikey is asking for a picture thats why
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:00:29 PM): well, next time....
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:00:39 PM): I got a new computer game
wild4u2crazy4u (8:00:53 PM): what?
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:01:12 PM): medievil total war, it's funking awe some man,
wild4u2crazy4u (8:01:21 PM): cool
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:01:31 PM): mmmm, I'm a little light headed
wild4u2crazy4u (8:01:54 PM): why?
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:02:11 PM): smoke
wild4u2crazy4u (8:02:37 PM): lmao
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:03:16 PM): I think thats why I can't spell
wild4u2crazy4u (8:03:45 PM): lol
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:04:12 PM): well, I gess I never cood
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:04:46 PM): all alone, nothing to do, it's lonely here without you
wild4u2crazy4u (8:04:53 PM): awww
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:04:57 PM): I need some muusic
wild4u2crazy4u (8:05:03 PM): coldplay
wild4u2crazy4u (8:06:04 PM): brb
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:06:24 PM): Simon & Garfunkel
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:06:34 PM): hello darkness my old friend
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:06:42 PM): I've come to talk to you again
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:06:57 PM): because a vision softly creeping
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:07:07 PM): left it's seed while I was sleeping
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:07:26 PM): and the vision that was planted in my brain
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:07:31 PM): still remains
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:08:10 PM): within the sound of silence
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:08:21 PM): now that is poetry
wild4u2crazy4u (8:09:02 PM): back
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:09:13 PM): YAAAAYYYYY!!!!!

the birth of wbbs

2005-01-13T23:59:00.000-10:00

raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (1:42:35 PM): are ewe mad at me or something?raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (1:43:02 PM): guess so
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (1:55:26 PM): I Love Ewe
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (1:55:32 PM):
wild4u2crazy4u (2:13:10 PM): really!!!
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:13:30 PM): Yes!!!!!!!
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:13:35 PM): hi
wild4u2crazy4u (2:13:39 PM): YYYYYYAAAAAYYYYYY
wild4u2crazy4u (2:13:40 PM): hi
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:15:11 PM): AOL has this thing going where you nominate who you think was the greatest american, (of course I said Jim Morrison) but there's a message board with a bunch of jackasses on it, it's really funny
wild4u2crazy4u (2:15:32 PM): lol
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:16:24 PM): one guy replied to my nomination of Jim saying "yeah well he got what he deserved, do drugs and die"
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:16:32 PM): it was so funny
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:17:10 PM): I said "hmmmm.....bitter and closed minded, and here I was expecting an intelligent rebuttle"
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:17:36 PM): there are some stupid mawtherfalkers on this thing
wild4u2crazy4u (2:18:10 PM): i gotta cool writing forum
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:18:20 PM): where
wild4u2crazy4u (2:18:41 PM): http://writersbbs.com/forums/
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:19:19 PM): Jkc1 wrote: [[I also thank God for President G.W. Bush, he is an honest and moral man and he does a great job defending our country against the terrorists. ]]
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:19:31 PM): an honest and moral man????
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:19:38 PM): oh I could die laughing
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:21:17 PM): where are ewe on the forum/what's ewer name
wild4u2crazy4u (2:21:30 PM): jewel
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:22:51 PM): guess what tomorrow is.
wild4u2crazy4u (2:23:45 PM): ur bday?
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:25:15 PM): what? tomorrow's my birthday?
wild4u2crazy4u (2:25:27 PM): yup!
wild4u2crazy4u (2:25:33 PM): u will be 17!
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:26:20 PM): yaaaayyyy!!!! tomorrows my birthday. Wanna go to the movies?
wild4u2crazy4u (2:26:38 PM): ok
wild4u2crazy4u (2:26:50 PM): wat ya wanna see?
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:27:03 PM): I dunno, the aviator?
wild4u2crazy4u (2:27:12 PM): eh ok
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:27:31 PM): did ewe wanna see something else
wild4u2crazy4u (2:27:48 PM): i dunno
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:28:00 PM): the aviator was the first thing that came to mind cause I saw the preview earlier
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:28:11 PM): what else is playing?
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:32:35 PM): know any other good forums?
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:32:55 PM): I joined writersbbs
wild4u2crazy4u (2:33:04 PM): aviator, darkness, fat albert, house of flying daggers, meet the fockers, ocean's twelve, racing stripes, white noise, coach carter, elektra, lemony snick, national teasure, phantom of the opera, and spangligh
wild4u2crazy4u (2:33:14 PM): cool wats your s/n no
wild4u2crazy4u (2:33:36 PM): http://movies.yahoo.com/showtimes/showtimes.html?z=96720
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:34:02 PM): *meth_angel* and I loved your poem.
wild4u2crazy4u (2:34:11 PM): thanks
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:35:27 PM): so what sounds good to you?
wild4u2crazy4u (2:36:42 PM): lemony snicket, meet the fockers, elektra maybe, nationa treasure
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:38:06 PM): elektra looks cool, I don't hear much good about meet the fockers, lemony snicket looks funny and I hear national treasure is good.
wild4u2crazy4u (2:38:23 PM): yuor choice b-day girl
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:38:28 PM): you wanted to see national treasure didntcha
wild4u2crazy4u (2:38:48 PM): your choice
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:40:04 PM): national treasure, hows about the 6:40 show? then maybe you could come over to my house, do you like banana cream pie?
wild4u2crazy4u (2:40:17 PM): yea
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:40:31 PM): my mom said she'd get me some
wild4u2crazy4u (2:40:43 PM): cool
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:41:22 PM): I like pie. I like banana creme pie. mmmmm.....pie.....*excessive salivation*
wild4u2crazy4u (2:41:54 PM): monkey
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:42:30 PM): hehe
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:42:40 PM): pie is good for you
wild4u2crazy4u (2:43:11 PM): yea
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:43:32 PM): do you go to school tomorrow?
wild4u2crazy4u (2:43:40 PM): yea
wild4u2crazy4u (2:43:44 PM): not monday tho
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:44:01 PM): kewwllllio
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:44:19 PM): I think you shouldn't go to school tomorrow
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:44:27 PM): cause it's my birthday
wild4u2crazy4u (2:44:30 PM): lol
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:44:34 PM): I never did
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:45:17 PM): of course a couple of years, my birthday was on the same day as martin luther king day so no one had to go to school
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:45:31 PM): that was kewl
wild4u2crazy4u (2:46:00 PM): lol
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:48:11 PM): I used to go into message boards looking for people to fight
wild4u2crazy4u (2:48:25 PM): sounds like you
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:49:27 PM): it's fun though, you post very insulting, controversial things and then see who replies. that's how you find out who's got half a brain
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:50:39 PM): the christian boards are the best
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (2:58:24 PM): gtg

wait...where am I?

2005-01-08T23:59:00.000-10:00

raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (4:39:37 PM): guess where I am?
wild4u2crazy4u (4:39:53 PM): where?
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (4:40:12 PM): in borders......
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (4:40:17 PM): in hilo!!!
wild4u2crazy4u (4:40:20 PM): cool!
wild4u2crazy4u (4:40:21 PM): brb
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (4:42:01 PM): ok
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (4:43:25 PM): I'll prolly be here for another hour
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (4:43:32 PM): sorry brb
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (4:46:07 PM): ok back
wild4u2crazy4u (4:46:20 PM): so u wanna come over?
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (4:46:35 PM): I'm in hilo
wild4u2crazy4u (4:46:46 PM): is that a no?
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (4:47:24 PM): are you gonna come over to hilo and pick me up
wild4u2crazy4u (4:47:36 PM): so no?
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (4:47:55 PM): well, are you
wild4u2crazy4u (4:48:25 PM): why can't you give mw a straight answer?
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (4:48:42 PM): why can't you
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (4:49:28 PM): what version of windows media player do you have on your computer?
wild4u2crazy4u (4:50:21 PM): windows media player for windows xp
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (4:50:46 PM): derr... what version? 10?
wild4u2crazy4u (4:51:05 PM): 9 i think
wild4u2crazy4u (4:51:23 PM): it really doesn't say anywhere
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (4:54:13 PM): ok thats ok
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (4:55:40 PM): I've got all of the red vs. blue season 3 so far
wild4u2crazy4u (4:55:52 PM): cool
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (5:08:48 PM): omg renee'e guess who's on
wild4u2crazy4u (5:08:58 PM): george!!!
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (5:09:14 PM): yaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wild4u2crazy4u (5:25:21 PM): the dancer doesn't work with evanescense
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (5:25:41 PM): HAHA I hate evanescence
wild4u2crazy4u (5:25:47 PM): lol
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (5:26:50 PM): I bet it would werk with the new U2 album
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (5:27:06 PM): I have that on my computer now
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (5:27:24 PM): I gtg pretty soon
wild4u2crazy4u (5:27:33 PM): ok bye
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (5:27:55 PM): bye, love you, I'll call you

I'm scared dave

2005-01-07T23:59:00.000-10:00

radiohead_euphoria (8:17:26 PM): wow that was loud
radiohead_euphoria (8:17:43 PM): have you ever seen the mothman prophecies?
wild4u2crazy4u (8:18:00 PM): no hush
radiohead_euphoria (8:18:29 PM): hush? hush? you're telling me to hush?
radiohead_euphoria (8:18:38 PM):
radiohead_euphoria (8:18:57 PM): why, pray tell should I hush?
radiohead_euphoria (8:19:59 PM): hello?
radiohead_euphoria (8:20:18 PM): the mothman prophecies is creepy
radiohead_euphoria (8:20:45 PM): but good
radiohead_euphoria (8:35:07 PM): Are ewe mad at me now?
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:36:11 PM): YEAAAA WOOOOOO I need to commune with some spirits AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:36:28 PM): HA HAAAAAA
wild4u2crazy4u (8:36:42 PM): then do so
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:37:16 PM): so you're mad at me then?
wild4u2crazy4u (8:37:27 PM): no i just not at comp
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:37:30 PM): OOOOOOHHHH YEAAA
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:37:39 PM): I feel weird
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:38:22 PM): I need a good man
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:40:28 PM): mmmmmmm.......I think I'm having macnut withdrawals
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:40:50 PM): and mac n cheese
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:41:26 PM): talk me down man, talk me down.
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:42:14 PM): don't leave me like this.....
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:42:26 PM): I'm scared dave
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:42:32 PM): will I dream
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:42:48 PM): daveyyyy.....daaavveeeyy
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:50:17 PM): my battery is dying and I don't think I'll make it to the next checkpoint Steve. Are the townsfolk kind? I don't know. But you grew up there. So did you.
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:50:50 PM): ahhhhhhh......abstract amatuer hour. lets all sing along
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:52:06 PM): am I making any sense here?
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:54:57 PM): don't worry, it gets better
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:55:11 PM): I was too late
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:57:03 PM): I'm gonna go howl at the moon, catch you later
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:57:15 PM): maybe we can steal some sunlight
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (8:57:31 PM): give it to the people

raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (9:44:04 PM): I scanned my computer with norton antivirus and it found 4 threats, they were the drunkmouse program. I suggest you scan your computer and/or delete those files immediately.
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (9:46:34 PM): http://securityresponse.symantec.com/avcenter/venc/data/joke.movemouse.html
raise_yourhand_ifyou_understand (9:48:48 PM): this program is a virus, its not really dangerous but it is a virus. like a trojan horse. you can really fuck someone up with this.

I'm easily amused

2005-01-01T23:59:00.000-10:00

one day at rene'e's house...

radiohead_euphoria (3:21:51 PM): why hello
wild4u2crazy4u (3:21:58 PM): hi
radiohead_euphoria (3:22:03 PM): what are ewe doing
wild4u2crazy4u (3:22:32 PM): trying to make copies with one drive, do u know how?
radiohead_euphoria (3:22:58 PM): not sure, I'll try
wild4u2crazy4u (3:23:26 PM): ok

later that evening...

radiohead_euphoria (9:01:55 PM): renee I do have to go soon
wild4u2crazy4u (9:02:16 PM): (unhappy emo)
radiohead_euphoria (9:02:27 PM): (equally unhappy emo)
radiohead_euphoria (9:02:39 PM): I love you, but it's the truth
wild4u2crazy4u (9:02:55 PM): its fucking pouring?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:03:00 PM): !!!*
radiohead_euphoria (9:03:13 PM): so, what you're scared?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:03:30 PM): u wanna wait in that??!?!?!
wild4u2crazy4u (9:04:10 PM): not until the musics done ok? then u can go
radiohead_euphoria (9:04:15 PM): I can call them and tell them to meet me in the culdesac, I'd have to leave now though, you know the gate code right
radiohead_euphoria (9:04:31 PM): yeah, okay I guess
radiohead_euphoria (9:04:41 PM): they're gonna kill me
wild4u2crazy4u (9:05:01 PM): i dont know the gate code
radiohead_euphoria (9:05:11 PM): 7264
radiohead_euphoria (9:05:27 PM): don't go telling everybody now
wild4u2crazy4u (9:06:58 PM): i wont
radiohead_euphoria (9:07:04 PM): hehe

back at home...

radiohead_euphoria (10:38:06 PM): yo IM me
wild4u2crazy4u (10:51:10 PM): why
radiohead_euphoria (10:51:20 PM): jus wanted to say hello
radiohead_euphoria (10:51:47 PM): hello
wild4u2crazy4u (10:52:00 PM): hi
radiohead_euphoria (10:54:28 PM): whatcha doin?
wild4u2crazy4u (10:54:46 PM): reading
radiohead_euphoria (10:58:28 PM): kewl, I'm downloading an episode of red vs. blue
wild4u2crazy4u (10:58:49 PM): cool
radiohead_euphoria (10:59:33 PM): and I'm trying to watch so graham norton, but the satellite is fucking up
radiohead_euphoria (11:01:51 PM): when do you start scool agin?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:03:43 PM): 11th
radiohead_euphoria (11:04:16 PM): hows about I stay over your howse for a couple of days next week?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:20:48 PM): ok
radiohead_euphoria (11:21:11 PM): YAAAAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!
wild4u2crazy4u (11:21:35 PM): gotta ask parents though
radiohead_euphoria (11:21:46 PM): yeah well
radiohead_euphoria (11:21:53 PM):
radiohead_euphoria (11:34:58 PM): omg I put my burned cd in and windows media player actually got the titles off the internet
wild4u2crazy4u (11:35:18 PM): cool!
radiohead_euphoria (11:37:09 PM): wow it's windy over here
wild4u2crazy4u (11:37:35 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (11:38:16 PM): I wonder what the buzz does in autumn leaves
radiohead_euphoria (11:38:26 PM): kewl!!!!!!
radiohead_euphoria (11:38:31 PM): did you see that
wild4u2crazy4u (11:41:12 PM): no but i know wat it does
radiohead_euphoria (11:41:23 PM): it's kewl
wild4u2crazy4u (11:41:56 PM): i kno used ta use it all the time
radiohead_euphoria (11:42:24 PM): hehehe

can we use yahoo? please?

2004-12-29T23:59:00.000-10:00

radiohead_euphoria (10:09:32 PM): can we use yahoo
wild4u2crazy4u (10:09:59 PM): yeah
radiohead_euphoria (10:10:22 PM): and why aren't you answering my other questions
wild4u2crazy4u (10:10:44 PM): what other questions
radiohead_euphoria (10:11:31 PM): Fear and Loathing Johnny Depp?
radiohead_euphoria (10:11:40 PM): you know I never did see this cousin
wild4u2crazy4u (10:11:41 PM): wat about it?
wild4u2crazy4u (10:11:45 PM): o
wild4u2crazy4u (10:11:49 PM): i dunno
radiohead_euphoria (10:11:51 PM): and you never told me if he could feel anythig from the waist down
radiohead_euphoria (10:12:01 PM): I talked to him on the fone though right
wild4u2crazy4u (10:12:08 PM): i don't think so
radiohead_euphoria (10:12:39 PM): yeah, I asked him if he was cute and he said he looked like Johnny Depp
wild4u2crazy4u (10:12:49 PM): nnnnnnnooooooo
radiohead_euphoria (10:12:51 PM): in Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
wild4u2crazy4u (10:12:53 PM): that was daniel
radiohead_euphoria (10:13:10 PM): no I think it was the wheelchair cousin
wild4u2crazy4u (10:13:22 PM): nnnoooo i remember it was daniel
radiohead_euphoria (10:13:29 PM): are you sure?
wild4u2crazy4u (10:13:35 PM): positive
radiohead_euphoria (10:13:55 PM): cause I wanted you ta ask him if he felt anything from the waist down
wild4u2crazy4u (10:14:02 PM): no
radiohead_euphoria (10:14:15 PM): and you thought that was creepy cause he's your cousin
wild4u2crazy4u (10:14:47 PM): that was daniel u asking me if he was cute and he said that he looked like johnny depp
radiohead_euphoria (10:15:26 PM): welll can he feel anything from the waist down?
wild4u2crazy4u (10:15:37 PM): no
radiohead_euphoria (10:15:40 PM):
radiohead_euphoria (10:15:46 PM): awwww nuts
wild4u2crazy4u (10:16:04 PM): jessie!!!!!!
radiohead_euphoria (10:16:17 PM):
radiohead_euphoria (10:16:19 PM):
radiohead_euphoria (10:16:23 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (10:16:28 PM):
radiohead_euphoria (10:16:59 PM): sooooo, what's this cousin like?
wild4u2crazy4u (10:17:22 PM): he's cool
radiohead_euphoria (10:17:40 PM): wow, could you vauge that up for me
wild4u2crazy4u (10:17:48 PM): i dunno!
radiohead_euphoria (10:18:24 PM): what's he look like maybe
wild4u2crazy4u (10:18:38 PM): long hair
radiohead_euphoria (10:19:18 PM): like shoulder length, or full on metallica (before the started sucking)
wild4u2crazy4u (10:19:39 PM): shoulder length
radiohead_euphoria (10:22:36 PM): ohhhh, that's nice, significant other?
wild4u2crazy4u (10:22:53 PM): no jess stop with the questions
radiohead_euphoria (10:23:06 PM): oh c'mon
radiohead_euphoria (10:23:39 PM): you should get picasa
wild4u2crazy4u (10:23:46 PM): huh
radiohead_euphoria (10:23:56 PM): for that matter you should get a digital camera
wild4u2crazy4u (10:24:19 PM): i have one
radiohead_euphoria (10:25:53 PM): kewl, picasa is a freeware program for organizing photo's they have this really cool ad-on called hello that sends pictures via IM it's revolutionary
radiohead_euphoria (10:26:00 PM): so is he attached
wild4u2crazy4u (10:26:18 PM): his name is sven
radiohead_euphoria (10:26:24 PM): then you and I could send pictures to each other
wild4u2crazy4u (10:26:25 PM): greyson?
radiohead_euphoria (10:26:33 PM): no, the cousin
radiohead_euphoria (10:26:41 PM): or well both actually
wild4u2crazy4u (10:26:45 PM): yea greyson
radiohead_euphoria (10:27:19 PM): so the cousin is....
wild4u2crazy4u (10:27:51 PM): greysen
radiohead_euphoria (10:28:04 PM): and the friend
wild4u2crazy4u (10:28:15 PM): sven
radiohead_euphoria (10:28:21 PM): well...
wild4u2crazy4u (10:28:49 PM): wat?
radiohead_euphoria (10:29:23 PM): attached, in love, married, divorced, gay, give me something here
wild4u2crazy4u (10:29:38 PM): single? i think
radiohead_euphoria (10:30:38 PM): yaayyyy!!!!
radiohead_euphoria (10:30:42 PM): brb
radiohead_euphoria (10:47:39 PM): back
wild4u2crazy4u (10:48:07 PM): yyyaaayyy
radiohead_euphoria (10:48:26 PM): hey I have to go, can I call you tmorrow morning, I werk at 11:30
wild4u2crazy4u (10:48:40 PM): ok might be gone
radiohead_euphoria (10:48:44 PM): where
wild4u2crazy4u (10:49:03 PM): greysons house
radiohead_euphoria (10:49:29 PM): hmmmmmm well I'll try, you really should get a cell fone y'know
wild4u2crazy4u (10:49:46 PM): i know
radiohead_euphoria (10:50:42 PM): ok g'knight
wild4u2crazy4u (10:50:53 PM): g'night

I hate microsoft (another MSN moment)

2004-12-29T23:45:00.000-10:00

Life Sucks; Get Over It says: guess what
Crawling King Snake says: what???!?!?!?!
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: another cousin brought another friend
Crawling King Snake says: that's weird any sparks
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: i dunno
Crawling King Snake says: cute?
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: he's 22
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: sure
Crawling King Snake says: cute? hot? sexxxxxyyy?
Crawling King Snake says: detaaiiiillsssss
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: oh shut up
Crawling King Snake says: c'mon, don't leave me hangin'
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: he's short
Crawling King Snake says: how short
Crawling King Snake says: could you vauge that up for me
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: dunno shorter than me but not by much talller than u
Crawling King Snake says: EVERYONE is taller than me
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: lol
Crawling King Snake says: c'mon, what cousin
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: greysen
Crawling King Snake says: uhhhmmm, what's he like
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: kinda funny
Crawling King Snake says: you have cute cousins
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: lol
Crawling King Snake says: no fair
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: heeeheeeheee
Crawling King Snake says: I like The Killers
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: lol
Crawling King Snake says: soooooo, is this cousin cute? and when did he come, and why?
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: the one in the wheelchair, tonight, to see his new house
Crawling King Snake says: ohhhhh, Fear and Loathing Johnny Depp?
Crawling King Snake says: just call me methangus
Crawling King Snake says: stupid spam
Crawling King Snake says: not the food, I love the food
Crawling King Snake says: you know I never did see this cousin
Crawling King Snake says: and you never told me if he could feel anythig from the waist down
Crawling King Snake says: I talked to him on the fone though right
Crawling King Snake says: are ewe still there?
Crawling King Snake says: and how long is he staying
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: 2 weeks at greysens house
Crawling King Snake says: he has a new house?

therapy, insecurity and annoyance

2004-12-28T23:59:00.000-10:00

radiohead_euphoria (5:51:26 PM): hehehe
radiohead_euphoria (5:51:41 PM): SPLAT!!!!!
radiohead_euphoria (9:05:27 PM): let's use yahoo
wild4u2crazy4u (9:05:46 PM): i gott a 2 yellow scoops!!!!!!!!!
radiohead_euphoria (9:06:38 PM): WOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
radiohead_euphoria (9:07:21 PM): =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D>
=D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D>
=D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D> =D>=D> =D> =D>
radiohead_euphoria (9:07:30 PM): awwwwww..... dammit
radiohead_euphoria (9:07:46 PM): =D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>
=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>=D>
radiohead_euphoria (9:07:55 PM): =D>
wild4u2crazy4u (9:07:58 PM): <
radiohead_euphoria (9:08:05 PM): they only show 6
wild4u2crazy4u (9:08:07 PM): i meant to hug
radiohead_euphoria (9:08:25 PM): <
radiohead_euphoria (9:08:33 PM): I furgot hau
wild4u2crazy4u (9:08:42 PM): me too
radiohead_euphoria (9:08:45 PM): ><
radiohead_euphoria (9:08:49 PM): nope
wild4u2crazy4u (9:08:50 PM): >:D<
radiohead_euphoria (9:09:07 PM): YAAAAAAYYYYY
wild4u2crazy4u (9:09:10 PM): georgie taught me
radiohead_euphoria (9:09:19 PM): say me tooo
radiohead_euphoria (9:09:29 PM): awww now I miss George
wild4u2crazy4u (9:09:36 PM): me too
wild4u2crazy4u (9:10:26 PM): my indian
radiohead_euphoria (9:10:59 PM): awwwww
wild4u2crazy4u (9:12:16 PM): awwww
radiohead_euphoria (9:12:25 PM): >:D<
radiohead_euphoria (9:12:27 PM): >:D<
radiohead_euphoria (9:12:30 PM): >:D<
wild4u2crazy4u (9:12:32 PM): he fell off the face of the earth cas he got married
radiohead_euphoria (9:12:34 PM): >:D<
radiohead_euphoria (9:12:37 PM): >:D<
radiohead_euphoria (9:12:39 PM): >:D<
radiohead_euphoria (9:12:42 PM): >:D<
radiohead_euphoria (9:12:56 PM): I miss george
radiohead_euphoria (9:13:01 PM): >:D<
radiohead_euphoria (9:13:26 PM): life's a bitch, and then you marry one.
wild4u2crazy4u (9:13:31 PM): lol
wild4u2crazy4u (9:13:52 PM): there was a tidal wave that almost hit george ya know
wild4u2crazy4u (9:14:03 PM): it missed, thankfully
radiohead_euphoria (9:14:05 PM): wow, you can't send more than three messages a second
radiohead_euphoria (9:14:07 PM): d
radiohead_euphoria (9:14:08 PM): dd
radiohead_euphoria (9:14:09 PM): d
wild4u2crazy4u (9:14:12 PM): \
radiohead_euphoria (9:14:17 PM): weird
radiohead_euphoria (9:14:19 PM): s
radiohead_euphoria (9:14:29 PM): mawtherfalkers
radiohead_euphoria (9:14:50 PM): are ewe still using snowflakes?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:15:55 PM): huh
radiohead_euphoria (9:16:48 PM): the IMVironment
wild4u2crazy4u (9:17:27 PM): sure
radiohead_euphoria (9:17:49 PM): oh
radiohead_euphoria (9:17:57 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (9:18:20 PM): BUZZZZ
radiohead_euphoria (9:18:49 PM): I love doing that
radiohead_euphoria (9:19:02 PM): my stomach hurts from laughing
radiohead_euphoria (9:19:10 PM):
wild4u2crazy4u (9:19:13 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (9:19:55 PM): hmmmm that was nice
radiohead_euphoria (9:22:31 PM): gtg

a little later.....

wild4u2crazy4u (10:48:59 PM): don't ever leave me jess
radiohead_euphoria (10:49:05 PM): I won't
radiohead_euphoria (10:50:02 PM): sorry I got cut off then people were on the phone then someone called for me, omg that was annoying, they changed my schedule for tomorrow.
wild4u2crazy4u (10:50:15 PM): ugh
radiohead_euphoria (10:50:53 PM): tell me about it, tomorrow I'm telling them that I am NOT working next week, no matter what!
wild4u2crazy4u (10:52:16 PM): remember eric dalton?
radiohead_euphoria (10:52:41 PM): who?
radiohead_euphoria (10:52:53 PM): sounds familiar
wild4u2crazy4u (10:53:01 PM): eric? 28 year old cute friend
radiohead_euphoria (10:53:22 PM): hrm, you've told me about him
radiohead_euphoria (10:53:33 PM): I mean I haven't met him have I
wild4u2crazy4u (10:53:41 PM): i dunno
wild4u2crazy4u (10:53:53 PM): i'll get u a picture
radiohead_euphoria (10:53:58 PM): kewl
wild4u2crazy4u (10:54:47 PM): lived on a boat
radiohead_euphoria (10:55:44 PM): a boat
radiohead_euphoria (10:56:08 PM): like a houseboat?
wild4u2crazy4u (10:58:05 PM): uh not sure never been on it
radiohead_euphoria (10:58:42 PM): wow! a boat. where was he from again
wild4u2crazy4u (10:58:54 PM): uh...
radiohead_euphoria (11:03:18 PM): uh... what?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:03:52 PM): ur not going to leave me are u?
radiohead_euphoria (11:05:55 PM): silly girl
radiohead_euphoria (11:06:08 PM): I'm emailing my blog
wild4u2crazy4u (11:06:10 PM): lol i'm kinda messed up right now
radiohead_euphoria (11:06:19 PM): what's wrong?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:06:47 PM): i kinda realized how many people have left me recently
radiohead_euphoria (11:07:33 PM): how many
wild4u2crazy4u (11:07:41 PM): lets see
wild4u2crazy4u (11:08:16 PM): 5.5
radiohead_euphoria (11:08:34 PM): ?.5?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:09:09 PM): well he didn't phsycally leave but he changed so much that he might as well have
wild4u2crazy4u (11:09:22 PM): oh and i think i won't be seeing adam anymore
wild4u2crazy4u (11:09:31 PM): oh yeah there's georgie to
wild4u2crazy4u (11:09:32 PM): o
radiohead_euphoria (11:09:46 PM): so that makes?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:09:52 PM): 7.5
wild4u2crazy4u (11:10:24 PM): hell eric left few years ago and came back
radiohead_euphoria (11:10:50 PM): I still don't quite understand the .5 part, but thats okay
wild4u2crazy4u (11:11:24 PM): i lost a goof friend not physcally but from the heart
radiohead_euphoria (11:11:47 PM): oh I see
wild4u2crazy4u (11:12:26 PM): tony had left but he came back so cant count him
wild4u2crazy4u (11:12:58 PM): oooooo my couselor left too that make 8.5
radiohead_euphoria (11:13:08 PM): hasn't anybody come into your life
wild4u2crazy4u (11:13:16 PM): not really
radiohead_euphoria (11:14:45 PM): well, in the words of Monty Python's Flying Circus, "always look on the bright side of life"
wild4u2crazy4u (11:17:51 PM): do u think i talk to much about sam?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:18:22 PM): truthfully
radiohead_euphoria (11:18:53 PM): I think you need to volunteer somewhere, the Salvation Army pays minimum wage.
radiohead_euphoria (11:20:06 PM): there is nothing wrong with being down sometimes, but renee you're always down
wild4u2crazy4u (11:20:26 PM): u noticed eh?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:22:50 PM): u never answered the question
radiohead_euphoria (11:22:53 PM): goto tsunamihelp.blogspot.com
radiohead_euphoria (11:23:58 PM): www.stjude.org
wild4u2crazy4u (11:24:23 PM): wat the hell
wild4u2crazy4u (11:24:25 PM): ????
radiohead_euphoria (11:24:42 PM): lot's of people are leaving renee
radiohead_euphoria (11:25:00 PM): lot's of people are being left
radiohead_euphoria (11:25:40 PM): maybe you should focus on helping others then you might gain more perspective on your problems
wild4u2crazy4u (11:26:02 PM): u'know this isn't really helping
radiohead_euphoria (11:26:56 PM): was it supposed to, I guess if your looking for instant gratification no, if you wanted petting, in the long run though...
radiohead_euphoria (11:31:57 PM): at least think about it
wild4u2crazy4u (11:32:16 PM): bout wat?
radiohead_euphoria (11:34:08 PM): what do you think
wild4u2crazy4u (11:34:19 PM): i dunno u confused me
radiohead_euphoria (11:34:47 PM): confused you? how?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:35:12 PM): "was it supposed to, I guess if your looking for instant gratification no, if you wanted petting, in the long run though..."
radiohead_euphoria (11:37:34 PM): "u'know this isn't really helping" what isn't really helping, the fact that I'm telling you to focus more on helping others rather than yourself?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:40:36 PM): i rather have ur opinion on wat i asked
radiohead_euphoria (11:40:57 PM): of course you would
radiohead_euphoria (11:41:00 PM): well
radiohead_euphoria (11:41:50 PM): you don't talk about sam, you talk about how you feel about him leaving and how it sucks for you, hence my answer
wild4u2crazy4u (11:44:16 PM): are u tired on my pitiful sorry ass?
radiohead_euphoria (11:44:28 PM): are you
wild4u2crazy4u (11:44:41 PM): yes!
radiohead_euphoria (11:45:52 PM): well, I'm afraid your the only one who can do anything about that, I'm trying to help you, but I don't understand whats wrong
wild4u2crazy4u (11:48:04 PM): how come ur answers seem so...physiciatric?
radiohead_euphoria (11:48:48 PM): I guess that's just the way I think, is that bad?
radiohead_euphoria (11:48:58 PM): hmmmm weird
wild4u2crazy4u (11:49:46 PM): i lost one best friend that way, thinking he could help me that way
radiohead_euphoria (11:50:11 PM): you lost him, or you left him?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:50:54 PM): our friendship wasn't as close, then he moved
radiohead_euphoria (11:51:37 PM): I didn't mean physically
wild4u2crazy4u (11:52:00 PM): i know just throwing that out there
wild4u2crazy4u (11:53:07 PM): when i said "u'know this isn't really helping" it was because u sounded like u were quoting something u heard from a doctor or read in a self help book
radiohead_euphoria (11:53:18 PM): you can have a psychiatrist, but if your friend tries to help you that way, it's bad. that's called tough love renee, we all need it sometimes
radiohead_euphoria (11:53:45 PM): I'm quoting me, and what has helped me.
radiohead_euphoria (11:54:03 PM): and what has helped other people I know
radiohead_euphoria (11:54:19 PM): and what could perobably help many other people
wild4u2crazy4u (11:55:04 PM): my life isn't the only thing i get choked up about by the way
radiohead_euphoria (11:55:22 PM): what are the others
wild4u2crazy4u (11:56:00 PM): other people's lives, the world, the reality (of course)
wild4u2crazy4u (11:56:11 PM): things i can't fix
radiohead_euphoria (11:56:49 PM): your not supposed to fix those problems, that's not why I said that to you
wild4u2crazy4u (11:57:16 PM): i know! i'm just saying
radiohead_euphoria (11:59:46 PM): yes

12.29.04

radiohead_euphoria (12:06:14 AM): brb
wild4u2crazy4u (12:06:22 AM): g'night
wild4u2crazy4u (12:07:19 AM): hb
radiohead_euphoria (12:10:48 AM): good night

An MSN moment

2004-12-28T23:45:00.000-10:00

Life Sucks; Get Over It = wild4u2crazy4u ------ Crawling King Snake = radiohead_euphoria

Life Sucks; Get Over It says: not gonna talk to me?
Crawling King Snake says: huh?
Crawling King Snake says: my yahoo messenger is fucking up
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: ha!
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: that sucks
Crawling King Snake says: ewer so mean
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: wat! i was serious
Crawling King Snake says: what're ewe doing
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: talking
Crawling King Snake says: to whom
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: a friend
Crawling King Snake says: well, if you don't want to tell me...
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: her name is kristen
Crawling King Snake says: ohhhh suuurrre
Crawling King Snake says: hehe jus jokin
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: i know
Crawling King Snake says: I'm getting a sitemeeter fur my blog
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: ok
Crawling King Snake says: am I interrupting ewer talk
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: not really
Crawling King Snake says: how are you talking to her?
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: IM
Crawling King Snake says: oh, hey me too
Crawling King Snake says: !!!!!!!
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: lol
Crawling King Snake says: I will NEVER own an ipod!!
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: sam owned an ipod
Crawling King Snake says: I loathe ipods, they are the devil, cover art is NOT dead!!!!!
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: so did daniel
Crawling King Snake says: wierd
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: hows the book?
Crawling King Snake says: which one
Crawling King Snake says: wait
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: any that i gave u
Crawling King Snake says: fine, how's yours
Crawling King Snake says: lol
Crawling King Snake says: O I had to say that
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: lol
Crawling King Snake says: and the quote for today is.....
Crawling King Snake says: drumroll please
Crawling King Snake says: The direct use of force is such a poor solution to any problem, it is generally employed only by small children and large nations.
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: lol
Crawling King Snake says: Yesteday's quote was....
Crawling King Snake says: Seek simplicity, and distrust it.
Crawling King Snake says: please stay tuned for a preview of tomorrow's quote
Crawling King Snake says: Honesty is a good thing, but.....
Crawling King Snake says: for more, tune in tomorrow at 7:47 hst
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: lol
Crawling King Snake says: I like that, pull them in and just WHAM! slam the door in their face, now that's what I call good advertising.
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: lol so hows the dead guy?
Crawling King Snake says: makes 'em beg for more
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: is his health good?>
Crawling King Snake says: that was cruel
Crawling King Snake says: funny
Crawling King Snake says: but cruel
Crawling King Snake says: ha, I
figured
out how
to
put
hard
returns
in
IM
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: huh
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: o that
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: i knew that long time
Crawling King Snake says: y'know, when you press 'enter' it sends the message and ......oooooohhhhhh....... you are just horrible
did you know that?
Crawling King Snake says: grrrrrrarrrgh
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: im sorry
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: not very nice mood
Crawling King Snake says: why, pray tell
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: ever wish u were part of the book u were reading?
Crawling King Snake says: every book I read, that's why I read so much
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: to escape reality
Crawling King Snake says: presicely
Crawling King Snake says: Happiness is always a by-product. It is probably a matter of temperament, and for anything I know it may be glandular. But it is not something that can be demanded from life, and if you are not happy you had better stop worrying about it and see what treasures you can pluck from your own brand of unhappiness.
Crawling King Snake says: I think I love blogging
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: when u come over show me
Crawling King Snake says: go to blogger.com
Crawling King Snake says: I think everyone should blog
Crawling King Snake says: I uploaded a photo of my dog
Crawling King Snake says: I love my dog
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: i love mine and my cat
Crawling King Snake says: I love ewer cat too
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: so did the boys, i remeber THAT distinctly
Crawling King Snake says: you remember EVERYTHING about the boys distinctly
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: lol they tried to take him to their tent
Crawling King Snake says: creepy
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: it was funny
Crawling King Snake says: and creepy
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: bah!
Crawling King Snake says: humbug!
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: why creepy?
Crawling King Snake says: boy's do weird things to cats
Crawling King Snake says: boys are icky
Crawling King Snake says: men are nice
Crawling King Snake says: are you gonna start a blog?
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: maybe
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: after u show me
Crawling King Snake says: kewl
Crawling King Snake says: pick one
every monday
every teusday
every thrusday
every friday
every saturday
every sunday
Crawling King Snake says: *tuesday*
thursday
Crawling King Snake says: to be notified of something, what would your preference be
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: saturday why?
Crawling King Snake says: hmmmmm....interesting
Crawling King Snake says: saturday it is
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: why
Crawling King Snake says: you'll see on saturday
Crawling King Snake says: what are ewe listening to/watching/doing
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: a game with mom
Crawling King Snake says: what game, pray tell, am I interrupting
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: text twist
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: maybe mondat
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: monday
Crawling King Snake says: hmmm monday? for what?
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: that question u asked me
Crawling King Snake says: ohhhhhh, I'm sorry but why would you want to change it?
Crawling King Snake says: wow! 1 visitor since dec. 29
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: i asked mom
Crawling King Snake says: I'm popular
Crawling King Snake says: hmmmmm.....maybe we can change it to monday
Crawling King Snake says: ok monday then
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: why!!!!
Crawling King Snake says: what you want saturday now!!?!?!
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: no monday but why
Crawling King Snake says: why what, it's your weekly notification
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: ok watever
Crawling King Snake says: the slow and steady progression of my train of thought has brought me, though rather roundabout, to the conclusion that, drumroll please, I am not dead. No, I am not dead, but just barely alive.
Crawling King Snake says: It took so long to come to this
had I always known?
and does it show?
Crawling King Snake says: The truth, it seems, is hiding from me, the voices in my mind scream to be let free, and around every corner there is an adventure just waiting for me.
Crawling King Snake says: Say yes to life
the trees scream.
oh no they are talking to me
Crawling King Snake says: It always happens just like this in my nightmares, in my wildest dreams.
Crawling King Snake says: I threw you the obvious and you flew with it on your back
a name in your recollection
down among a million say
difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed
passed over
Crawling King Snake says: when I look right through
and see you naked but oblivious
and you don't see me
Crawling King Snake says: A perfect Circle - Three Libras
Crawling King Snake says: it's Karma Sutra time
Please make sexy with your mouse
Life Sucks; Get Over It says: what?

ahhhhhh the mysteries of the universe......they always leave you confused.

2004-12-27T23:59:00.000-10:00

radiohead_euphoria (10:09:14 PM): noooooooooO!!!!!!
radiohead_euphoria (10:12:07 PM): well, I tried to call you yesterday. but since I didn't get a hold of you, merry christmas and I love you and I hope you got everything you wanted and had a great day and had fun and enjoyed your family and I was thinking of you and I love you and merry christmas again ok.

later that night....

radiohead_euphoria (11:43:27 PM): late night
wild4u2crazy4u (11:43:36 PM): movies
radiohead_euphoria (11:43:45 PM): which one
wild4u2crazy4u (11:43:52 PM): bandits
radiohead_euphoria (11:44:13 PM): kewl, did ewe get my offline message
wild4u2crazy4u (11:44:36 PM): yes thank u it was sweet merry christmas
radiohead_euphoria (11:44:56 PM): right back at you babe.
radiohead_euphoria (11:45:21 PM): one more week at mcdonalds
wild4u2crazy4u (11:45:36 PM): YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYy
radiohead_euphoria (11:46:08 PM): ditto! you would not believe how relieved I am to be leaving
wild4u2crazy4u (11:46:20 PM): i can
radiohead_euphoria (11:46:35 PM): sooooooooooo relieved!
radiohead_euphoria (11:47:40 PM): I love my giraffe
wild4u2crazy4u (11:47:51 PM): cool
wild4u2crazy4u (11:48:55 PM): i like Faerie Caves II - Fyora's Quest
radiohead_euphoria (11:49:16 PM): kewl
wild4u2crazy4u (11:49:29 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (11:49:57 PM): don't you hate wrapping those oddly shaped ones?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:50:08 PM): o god yes
radiohead_euphoria (11:50:38 PM): santa must have had a really hard time with that one
wild4u2crazy4u (11:50:50 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (11:50:58 PM): you know what I don't get about the whole santa thing?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:51:06 PM): wat about
radiohead_euphoria (11:52:30 PM): what about the parents that don't believe in santa, what do they say when their kids get stuff they couldn't possibly have gotten them? they have to notice a few extra presents under the tree, and what about the one's santa gives them?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:52:46 PM): I KNOW!
wild4u2crazy4u (11:52:54 PM): that kills me
radiohead_euphoria (11:53:17 PM): and whats up with the stockings, I mean if you didn't fill them, and I didn't fill them who did?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:53:29 PM): yea i know!
radiohead_euphoria (11:54:12 PM): That would prolly prove his existence right there, or disprove.
wild4u2crazy4u (11:54:25 PM): agreed
radiohead_euphoria (11:54:41 PM): next year I have to be really good so I can test it
wild4u2crazy4u (11:56:04 PM): and whys he gotta be fat and old anywho?
radiohead_euphoria (11:56:08 PM): when exactly does the good/bad thing start though? like right after christmas, or after new years, so you get like 5 free days, cause that would be cool.
wild4u2crazy4u (11:56:25 PM): uh
radiohead_euphoria (11:56:47 PM): ahhhhhh the mysteries of the universe......
wild4u2crazy4u (11:57:45 PM): roflmao
radiohead_euphoria (11:58:03 PM): I don't know aboot christmas man, it seems a bit fishy to me.
wild4u2crazy4u (11:58:45 PM): it is
radiohead_euphoria (11:59:12 PM): and assuming that I haven't been good (which I prolly haven't) I didn't get any coal, or is that just if you have a stocking?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:59:34 PM): the coal is a dead! give away any hoot

12.27.04

radiohead_euphoria (12:00:08 AM): true
radiohead_euphoria (12:00:49 AM): I mean, it's not like your parents are gonna go out and truck a whole load of coal home for your naughty ass
wild4u2crazy4u (12:01:03 AM): u think someone would see the sleigh eh?
wild4u2crazy4u (12:01:05 AM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (12:01:43 AM): it's gotta be pretty damn big to fit all those presents and that fat geyser
radiohead_euphoria (12:02:17 AM): and who in their right mind (or any state of mind) would miss 8 flying reindeer
radiohead_euphoria (12:02:43 AM): that's streaching it a bit you dig?
radiohead_euphoria (12:03:39 AM): I think they're asking a bit much of everyone to believe that., sorry got diconnected
radiohead_euphoria (12:04:44 AM): wow! i have 41,996 NP in the bank!
wild4u2crazy4u (12:04:48 AM): no human can surviv the north pole
radiohead_euphoria (12:05:17 AM): maybe santa's an alien
radiohead_euphoria (12:05:26 AM): that would be cool
wild4u2crazy4u (12:05:58 AM): how come no one found snow in there houses or boot prints?
wild4u2crazy4u (12:06:19 AM): wow! i have 274,094 NP in the bank
radiohead_euphoria (12:06:29 AM): i hate you
wild4u2crazy4u (12:06:41 AM): hehehehe i play alota games
radiohead_euphoria (12:06:46 AM): i werked hard for those np
radiohead_euphoria (12:07:05 AM): worked the neopian streets
radiohead_euphoria (12:08:13 AM): pimpin my neopets, selling mind altering substances in the neopian underground
radiohead_euphoria (12:08:33 AM): I'm the neopian mafia
wild4u2crazy4u (12:08:56 AM): right
radiohead_euphoria (12:09:41 AM): there's a dangerous ring of junkies and ho's and I cater to 'em.
wild4u2crazy4u (12:09:48 AM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (12:09:55 AM): that would be cool if they had that
radiohead_euphoria (12:10:17 AM): can you imagine a gelert crack whore
wild4u2crazy4u (12:10:25 AM): lol ugh!
radiohead_euphoria (12:10:27 AM): or a kau
radiohead_euphoria (12:10:48 AM): and the techo is dressed in a pimp suit
wild4u2crazy4u (12:10:52 AM): too much like reality
radiohead_euphoria (12:11:02 AM): with gold teeth
radiohead_euphoria (12:11:12 AM): and bling-bling
radiohead_euphoria (12:11:57 AM): way too much like reality
wild4u2crazy4u (12:13:17 AM): so wat did ya want foe christmas that u didn't get?
radiohead_euphoria (12:13:41 AM): a good man
wild4u2crazy4u (12:14:02 AM): sam's b-day today
radiohead_euphoria (12:14:26 AM): awwww neopets doesn't allow the word 'cunt' on their site, darn
radiohead_euphoria (12:14:44 AM): the day after christmas, what a bummer
wild4u2crazy4u (12:15:02 AM): no on the 27th
radiohead_euphoria (12:15:38 AM): still blows
wild4u2crazy4u (12:15:44 AM): yea
wild4u2crazy4u (12:16:36 AM): u know wat was stupid
radiohead_euphoria (12:16:39 AM): then people give you one present and they're like "it's for christmas AND your birthday, aren't I a cheap clever little bastard haha"
radiohead_euphoria (12:16:56 AM): mawtherfalkers
radiohead_euphoria (12:17:13 AM): wat
radiohead_euphoria (12:18:31 AM): check out my guild on neopets, goto the poems section and scroll down, when you find '****' well, use your imagination
radiohead_euphoria (12:18:54 AM): http://www.neopets.com/guilds/guild.phtml?oid=the_lizard_king
wild4u2crazy4u (12:20:15 AM): i don't see whu no one else has joined (no one except urself 5 times over
radiohead_euphoria (12:21:38 AM): you can't really find it if you look through the neighborhood (or the 'hood as I like to call it) I think it's not very popular.
wild4u2crazy4u (12:22:14 AM): i c
radiohead_euphoria (12:22:48 AM): sed the blind man two his deff dotter
wild4u2crazy4u (12:23:00 AM): no no thats i see
radiohead_euphoria (12:28:51 AM): yes, said the blind man to his deaf daughter
radiohead_euphoria (12:29:10 AM): what did ewe say
wild4u2crazy4u (12:32:04 AM): doesn't each year have two winters
radiohead_euphoria (12:32:30 AM): wow I never thought of it that way
wild4u2crazy4u (12:32:44 AM): shocking
radiohead_euphoria (12:34:38 AM): well I think of them in seasons, four seasons a year, y'know in the pagan calender the new year starts in october, on the first day of the harvest, it's called Samhain
wild4u2crazy4u (12:35:46 AM): is everything named sam?
radiohead_euphoria (12:36:13 AM): actually it's pronounced closer to 'savain'
radiohead_euphoria (12:36:17 AM): brb
radiohead_euphoria (12:37:57 AM): bbback
radiohead_euphoria (12:38:13 AM): had to do some laundry
wild4u2crazy4u (12:38:51 AM): ok
wild4u2crazy4u (12:39:17 AM): watever, thats not the first time i accidently saw sam's name on this window
radiohead_euphoria (12:39:36 AM): when was the other time
wild4u2crazy4u (12:40:32 AM): oh, when u were talking about something and u said the name sam, i almost called u a bitch caz i thought u were torturing me
wild4u2crazy4u (12:41:21 AM): anyway im tired g'night\
radiohead_euphoria (12:42:02 AM): yeah I should sleep too night love, merry christmas (day after)
wild4u2crazy4u (12:42:08 AM): night
wild4u2crazy4u (12:42:13 AM): ditto
radiohead_euphoria (12:42:19 AM): gg

much much later that day.....

wild4u2crazy4u (9:05:22 PM): hey
radiohead_euphoria (9:05:46 PM): wheat
wild4u2crazy4u (9:05:57 PM): watching a movie
radiohead_euphoria (9:06:17 PM): what movie, and do you do anything else?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:06:32 PM): i robot and no
radiohead_euphoria (9:07:27 PM): i heard that was good, is it?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:09:11 PM): so far
radiohead_euphoria (9:09:21 PM): radio was good
radiohead_euphoria (9:16:13 PM): tell me when it's done
wild4u2crazy4u (9:16:29 PM): ok

again, later....

wild4u2crazy4u (10:09:01 PM): that was good

radiohead_euphoria (10:14:20 PM): hey where'd you go?

why IM someone when they're sitting right next to you?

2004-12-23T23:59:00.000-10:00

12.20.04

radiohead_euphoria (5:53:47 PM): what are ewe doing
wild4u2crazy4u (6:01:15 PM): "cunt sucking mother fucker"
radiohead_euphoria (6:02:02 PM): Fuckheaded crack licking whore
wild4u2crazy4u (6:02:25 PM): hey! why u calling me names?
radiohead_euphoria (6:02:41 PM): why ewe calling me names
wild4u2crazy4u (6:02:50 PM): i didn't!
radiohead_euphoria (6:03:32 PM): liar and I quote "cunt sucking mother fucker"
radiohead_euphoria (6:03:38 PM): where did that come from
wild4u2crazy4u (6:03:50 PM): i was quoting a song!!!!!!!!
radiohead_euphoria (6:04:33 PM): ohhh sure.....the_lizard_king
wild4u2crazy4u (6:04:54 PM): no actually, its by sublime
radiohead_euphoria (6:05:22 PM): no, me on neopets. you listen to sublime?
wild4u2crazy4u (6:05:53 PM): yea, i got three albums on this computer
radiohead_euphoria (6:06:05 PM): whoah.
radiohead_euphoria (6:06:49 PM): search in guilds for The Doors of Perception.
radiohead_euphoria (6:18:58 PM): well got to go I'm at this freaky gurl I know's house, talk to you l8tr
wild4u2crazy4u (6:19:13 PM): ok bye

12.21.04

wild4u2crazy4u (12:06:18 PM): EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!
radiohead_euphoria (12:07:21 PM): awwwwww
radiohead_euphoria (12:08:20 PM): okbye
wild4u2crazy4u (12:08:40 PM): bye?

radiohead_euphoria (1:06:51 PM): Take a chance you stupid ho
wild4u2crazy4u (2:09:18 PM): http://www.ebaumsworld.com/officepranks.html
wild4u2crazy4u (2:15:01 PM): http://www.geocities.com/Area51/Labyrinth/3593/funfiles.htm

12.23.04

radiohead_euphoria (5:39:14 PM): they got the guns but we got the numbers, gonna win yeah we're taking over

failed conversations and new mediums

2004-12-19T23:59:00.000-10:00

12.17.04

radiohead_euphoria (10:35:14 PM): HellooooooooooOO

12.18.04

radiohead_euphoria (4:04:30 PM): YO
radiohead_euphoria (4:04:48 PM): Haylo

12.19.04

radiohead_euphoria (2:38:01 PM): yo
wild4u2crazy4u (2:38:09 PM): hi
radiohead_euphoria (2:38:23 PM): you should blog
wild4u2crazy4u (2:39:19 PM): hi?
wild4u2crazy4u (2:39:23 PM): wat?
wild4u2crazy4u (2:39:25 PM): *
radiohead_euphoria (2:39:53 PM): goto blogger.com, it's interesting.
radiohead_euphoria (2:41:58 PM): I found it when I was playing around on google
wild4u2crazy4u (2:42:13 PM): o
radiohead_euphoria (2:42:31 PM): so did ewe look at it
wild4u2crazy4u (2:42:38 PM): i tried
radiohead_euphoria (2:42:43 PM): heh?
wild4u2crazy4u (2:43:03 PM): my network is going wacko
radiohead_euphoria (2:43:18 PM): funking netwerk!
wild4u2crazy4u (2:43:37 PM): i'd say
radiohead_euphoria (2:43:40 PM): you should do it though, when the netwerk weks agin
radiohead_euphoria (2:43:47 PM): *werks
wild4u2crazy4u (2:43:49 PM): i don't think i'm supposed to be on dial up
radiohead_euphoria (2:44:14 PM): dial up? i thought ewe had DSL
wild4u2crazy4u (2:44:26 PM): i do
radiohead_euphoria (2:44:39 PM): I'm confewsed
wild4u2crazy4u (2:44:55 PM): me too
wild4u2crazy4u (2:45:16 PM): wats a blog
wild4u2crazy4u (2:45:50 PM): brb
radiohead_euphoria (2:47:03 PM): it's like an online diary, you write your thoughts or watever on it and they get published onto the internet for all to see, it's really liberating, totally anonymous, and you get feedback from others.
radiohead_euphoria (2:47:27 PM): hahaha I love that!
wild4u2crazy4u (2:47:41 PM): cool
radiohead_euphoria (2:47:57 PM): yep
radiohead_euphoria (2:48:26 PM): *dances around like a munky on a music box*
radiohead_euphoria (2:48:36 PM): SPLAT!!!
wild4u2crazy4u (2:49:14 PM): have u ever loved and lost?
radiohead_euphoria (2:49:52 PM): no...all the guy's I love are completely unattainable, or dead.
radiohead_euphoria (2:50:12 PM): lol, jus kidding, yes I have
wild4u2crazy4u (2:50:52 PM): when?
radiohead_euphoria (2:51:56 PM): not too long ago, sorta like what hapened to ewe, he moved to Cali for college, I haven't heard from him in awhile.
radiohead_euphoria (2:52:14 PM): I don't think he's even there enymore
radiohead_euphoria (2:52:25 PM): the last I heard he was dropping out
wild4u2crazy4u (2:53:25 PM): how come u never told me?
radiohead_euphoria (2:54:23 PM): I didn't tell anyone really, he was, like 20, and I was 15, it was.....romantic y'know?
radiohead_euphoria (2:54:30 PM): it being secret
wild4u2crazy4u (2:54:41 PM): i see
radiohead_euphoria (2:54:42 PM): sorry
radiohead_euphoria (2:55:10 PM): my family still doesn't know
wild4u2crazy4u (2:55:42 PM): hey, does liking someone but not wanting them make sense to you?
radiohead_euphoria (2:55:54 PM): yes
wild4u2crazy4u (2:56:05 PM): thank god someone does
radiohead_euphoria (2:57:30 PM): hehe check this out
wild4u2crazy4u (2:58:15 PM): not curious why i asked eh?
radiohead_euphoria (2:58:20 PM): I have stuff on the internet
radiohead_euphoria (2:58:45 PM): I didn't think you'd tell me, but yes very curious.
wild4u2crazy4u (2:59:14 PM): thats how i feel about derrick, who looks like sam oddly
radiohead_euphoria (2:59:20 PM): do you have IMVironments on?
wild4u2crazy4u (2:59:34 PM): sure
radiohead_euphoria (2:59:44 PM): ahhhhh, but you want sam?
wild4u2crazy4u (2:59:52 PM): yes
wild4u2crazy4u (3:00:12 PM): derrick is really cute, even my mom thinks so (hehe)
radiohead_euphoria (3:00:21 PM): do you have the snowflakes on, just want to make sure you know why I keep buzzing you.
radiohead_euphoria (3:00:44 PM): he sorta reminds you of sam right?
wild4u2crazy4u (3:00:47 PM): yes i do
radiohead_euphoria (3:00:55 PM): SPLAT!!
wild4u2crazy4u (3:01:00 PM): i'm trying not to think of sam
wild4u2crazy4u (3:01:05 PM): not really working
radiohead_euphoria (3:01:38 PM): well not with the creepy sam lookalikes you keep hanging around with.
wild4u2crazy4u (3:01:58 PM): lol
wild4u2crazy4u (3:02:06 PM): its not only that
radiohead_euphoria (3:02:39 PM): maybe you don't 'want' derrick because all you see is sam, or all you think about when you look at him is sam, you don't really see derrick
radiohead_euphoria (3:03:31 PM): hey! there's a doggie under my desk!
wild4u2crazy4u (3:03:38 PM): something like that, derrick is too much like other guys, i think i like him because of his similiars with sam
wild4u2crazy4u (3:03:47 PM): u think i talk too much about sam
radiohead_euphoria (3:03:52 PM): i see
radiohead_euphoria (3:04:03 PM): no i don't
radiohead_euphoria (3:04:11 PM):
radiohead_euphoria (3:04:44 PM): talking about sam with you, takes my mind off loving a dead guy.
wild4u2crazy4u (3:04:44 PM): u know, u are more sympathetic since falling for... jim
radiohead_euphoria (3:04:59 PM): that was low
wild4u2crazy4u (3:05:02 PM): well that doesn't really help me
radiohead_euphoria (3:05:02 PM): lol
wild4u2crazy4u (3:05:10 PM): it's true
radiohead_euphoria (3:05:44 PM): I think you need a hobby
wild4u2crazy4u (3:06:10 PM): i have many hobbies
radiohead_euphoria (3:07:20 PM): you need a new one, a very difficult one, like learning to play an instrument (not the harmonica), anything that challenges you.
wild4u2crazy4u (3:07:31 PM): or guitar
radiohead_euphoria (3:08:30 PM): yes that's hard, I still don't know how and I've been playing for years, it's good though, the pain in my fingers distracts me from the pain in my heart
wild4u2crazy4u (3:08:53 PM): sam played the guitar
radiohead_euphoria (3:08:58 PM): and I don't hink that'd help ewe
wild4u2crazy4u (3:09:10 PM): thats wat i thought
radiohead_euphoria (3:09:13 PM): that's why
radiohead_euphoria (3:09:43 PM): hahaha I just can't get over that
radiohead_euphoria (3:09:49 PM): SPLAT!!
radiohead_euphoria (3:09:56 PM): lol
wild4u2crazy4u (3:10:17 PM): it pisses me off that he left so early
radiohead_euphoria (3:10:48 PM): ahhh...anger is a healthy emotion, you need an outlet.
wild4u2crazy4u (3:12:56 PM): part of me hates myself for being so obsessive
radiohead_euphoria (3:14:09 PM): well.....you can always beat the everlovin shit outta yerself it a public restroom
radiohead_euphoria (3:14:34 PM): I'm not sure how that would help you but it's good exercise
wild4u2crazy4u (3:14:43 PM): i see
radiohead_euphoria (3:15:03 PM): sorry, I'm in a whimsical mood
wild4u2crazy4u (3:15:11 PM): that same part of me doesn't understand why
radiohead_euphoria (3:16:09 PM): I hate hotmail.
radiohead_euphoria (3:16:20 PM): I hate AOL
radiohead_euphoria (3:18:31 PM): I HATE those little garnishes they put on your plate at restaurants that make your food taste like grass, or at least you think the food tastes like grass cause all you can smell are those fucking garnishes that they put on your plate withou even asking if you wanted your meal to be ruined.
radiohead_euphoria (3:19:03 PM): fucking stuck up cum sucking bastards
radiohead_euphoria (3:19:14 PM): I hate organized religion
radiohead_euphoria (3:19:35 PM): I hate the sound people make when they chew their food
radiohead_euphoria (3:19:47 PM): it makes me want o tear my hair out
wild4u2crazy4u (3:20:32 PM): that part of me thinks that i'm just a stupid fucking little dreamer girl, imagining all of the stupid romancing
radiohead_euphoria (3:20:41 PM): I hate pro wrestling
radiohead_euphoria (3:21:09 PM): there's nothing wrong wih romance
radiohead_euphoria (3:21:35 PM): what are ewe doing tonight
wild4u2crazy4u (3:21:41 PM): now i'm not even sure about wat me and sam had
radiohead_euphoria (3:22:04 PM): and I hate that boxing has gone dirty, it used to be a sport.
wild4u2crazy4u (3:22:26 PM): and now i will leran
radiohead_euphoria (3:22:49 PM): well, you've got to be pining over him for a good reason right?
radiohead_euphoria (3:22:59 PM): right?
wild4u2crazy4u (3:23:13 PM): and now i learn: the memories, as sweet as can be: in my heart they mey burn
radiohead_euphoria (3:24:08 PM): I don't understand why you can't move on
radiohead_euphoria (3:24:36 PM): if there wasn't anything real between you
wild4u2crazy4u (3:25:01 PM): gee than ks
radiohead_euphoria (3:26:26 PM): no, what I'm saying is, there must have been something there, or you wouldn't feel this way.
radiohead_euphoria (3:28:40 PM): what was that
wild4u2crazy4u (3:29:28 PM): wat is really messed up is when those songs start applying to you
radiohead_euphoria (3:29:59 PM): that's what they write them for
wild4u2crazy4u (3:35:47 PM): u grow tiresome listening to this?
radiohead_euphoria (3:37:21 PM): no, I was just thinking.
wild4u2crazy4u (3:38:16 PM): of wat?
radiohead_euphoria (3:39:29 PM): there is always going to be a song that applies to you, no matter what is going on in your life. I love an hate those songs, love them because I like to think that I'm not alone, that there is someone else who understands what I'm going through, hate them because it cheapens the emotion.
wild4u2crazy4u (3:39:57 PM): too many is too many
radiohead_euphoria (3:41:54 PM): and also because I don't want to hear about what they are feeling or what I am feeling either, I want to experience something, I want something sacred, thats part of why I love Jim.
wild4u2crazy4u (3:44:04 PM): i never done anything like this before
radiohead_euphoria (3:44:22 PM): like what?
wild4u2crazy4u (3:44:46 PM): this whole thing with sam, every part of it is new to me
radiohead_euphoria (3:45:24 PM): which makes it even more beautiful, and painful
wild4u2crazy4u (3:49:34 PM): when are u off
radiohead_euphoria (3:49:59 PM): today, tuesday, wednesday, christmas.
wild4u2crazy4u (3:50:31 PM): lets do something
radiohead_euphoria (3:50:32 PM): what are ewe doin today
wild4u2crazy4u (3:50:36 PM): nothing
radiohead_euphoria (3:50:45 PM): hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
wild4u2crazy4u (3:50:52 PM): when do u work tomorrow?
radiohead_euphoria (3:51:13 PM): 8-4
wild4u2crazy4u (3:51:25 PM): 8 am?
radiohead_euphoria (3:51:53 PM): nooooooooo 8pm to 4am
radiohead_euphoria (3:52:00 PM): lol yeas
wild4u2crazy4u (3:52:00 PM): awesome
wild4u2crazy4u (3:52:19 PM): wat ya wanna do
radiohead_euphoria (3:52:38 PM): when?
wild4u2crazy4u (3:53:09 PM): today evening and tomorrow morning?
radiohead_euphoria (3:53:38 PM): I werk 8am tomorrow
wild4u2crazy4u (3:54:03 PM): i thought u said 8pm
radiohead_euphoria (3:55:11 PM): I got confewsed am/pm/pms all the sam to me
radiohead_euphoria (3:57:13 PM): sorry
radiohead_euphoria (3:57:31 PM): I'm off Tuesday Wednesday though
radiohead_euphoria (3:59:55 PM): email me something
wild4u2crazy4u (4:02:04 PM): that was mean
radiohead_euphoria (4:02:14 PM): what was man
radiohead_euphoria (4:02:19 PM): *mean
radiohead_euphoria (4:02:28 PM): I mean
radiohead_euphoria (4:10:10 PM): omg I was born in the year of the Rabbit!!
radiohead_euphoria (4:13:07 PM): all this time I thought I was born in the year of the Dragon
radiohead_euphoria (4:13:39 PM): what year were ewe born?
wild4u2crazy4u (4:14:34 PM): 1988
radiohead_euphoria (4:14:54 PM): you're a dragon
wild4u2crazy4u (4:14:58 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (4:15:26 PM): the chinese new year isn't until the 20th or something so I have 1987's sign
radiohead_euphoria (4:16:00 PM): Rabbits are compatable with Dogs Pigs and Rams
radiohead_euphoria (4:16:16 PM): Jim was born in the year of the Ram
radiohead_euphoria (4:17:51 PM): this is so weird, after all these years.
radiohead_euphoria (4:19:36 PM): wanna see a movie
wild4u2crazy4u (4:19:53 PM): sure wat u wanna see?
radiohead_euphoria (4:20:13 PM): *shrug* what ewe wanna see
wild4u2crazy4u (4:22:37 PM): ocean's twelve, the incredibles, or maybe national treasure
radiohead_euphoria (4:25:21 PM): oooohhh oceans twelve
radiohead_euphoria (4:25:31 PM): thats alot of hotties
wild4u2crazy4u (4:25:39 PM): yea
radiohead_euphoria (4:26:02 PM): *salivates excessively*
radiohead_euphoria (4:26:44 PM): You've got to make contact with the alien leader. How will you tell when the conversation is finished?
wild4u2crazy4u (4:27:07 PM): wat?
radiohead_euphoria (4:27:22 PM): whats your answer
radiohead_euphoria (4:27:38 PM): gtg, I'll call you in afew minutes okay
wild4u2crazy4u (4:27:51 PM): ok

later that night....

radiohead_euphoria (9:28:21 PM): hay
radiohead_euphoria (9:28:30 PM): haha SPLAT!!

wild4u2crazy4u (10:37:33 PM): night
radiohead_euphoria (10:37:38 PM): what
wild4u2crazy4u (10:37:45 PM): g'night
radiohead_euphoria (10:37:55 PM): you jus t got on
wild4u2crazy4u (10:38:05 PM): so
radiohead_euphoria (10:38:23 PM): so you just got on to say good night
radiohead_euphoria (10:38:29 PM): !!!!!
wild4u2crazy4u (10:38:41 PM): i opened my laptop to shut down
radiohead_euphoria (10:38:55 PM): but....but.....
radiohead_euphoria (10:39:06 PM): I'm confewsed
wild4u2crazy4u (10:39:18 PM): night
radiohead_euphoria (10:39:35 PM): yes it is
wild4u2crazy4u (10:39:48 PM): i knew u'd say that
radiohead_euphoria (10:40:06 PM): tehehe but it was funny neh?
wild4u2crazy4u (10:40:13 PM): sure
wild4u2crazy4u (10:40:18 PM): g'night
radiohead_euphoria (10:40:21 PM): good night

a swift kick in the.... and other things not related.

2004-12-14T23:59:00.000-10:00

radiohead_euphoria (2:27:15 PM): check my status
wild4u2crazy4u (2:27:28 PM): huh
wild4u2crazy4u (2:27:49 PM): on?
wild4u2crazy4u (2:27:54 PM): o lol
wild4u2crazy4u (2:28:21 PM): i might have to log off quickly so be warned
radiohead_euphoria (2:28:33 PM): where are ewe
wild4u2crazy4u (2:28:48 PM): at school
radiohead_euphoria (2:29:06 PM): ohhhhhh, having fun
wild4u2crazy4u (2:29:23 PM): sure
radiohead_euphoria (2:30:18 PM): studying hard
wild4u2crazy4u (2:30:29 PM): nah, its aftewr school
radiohead_euphoria (2:31:10 PM): kewl, how was it?
wild4u2crazy4u (2:31:25 PM): fun, i did nothing all day
radiohead_euphoria (2:32:19 PM): so did I
wild4u2crazy4u (2:32:25 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (2:32:35 PM): what are ewe doin l8tr
wild4u2crazy4u (2:32:44 PM): wanna do something friday? unless you...work
radiohead_euphoria (2:34:07 PM): honey I always werk on fridays
wild4u2crazy4u (2:34:16 PM): o damn u
radiohead_euphoria (2:34:59 PM): what are ewe doin l8tr
radiohead_euphoria (2:35:07 PM): or tomarra
wild4u2crazy4u (2:35:45 PM): uh, wednesday i can do something if i can get home fast kine, which i might be able to do
radiohead_euphoria (2:36:17 PM): re-e-e-e-e-eally
wild4u2crazy4u (2:36:24 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (2:37:08 PM): well I'm off to-day and to-morrow.
wild4u2crazy4u (2:37:19 PM): cool why?>
radiohead_euphoria (2:37:47 PM): don't know, do you have any invites yet in gmail?
wild4u2crazy4u (2:38:55 PM): brb
radiohead_euphoria (2:39:00 PM): ok, do you have any invites yet in gmail?
radiohead_euphoria (2:39:22 PM): I ony have 1 left
radiohead_euphoria (2:39:32 PM): I think I'll save it
radiohead_euphoria (2:39:49 PM): fur someone especial
radiohead_euphoria (2:40:32 PM): or I'll invite myself and then get more and more mwuahahahaha
wild4u2crazy4u (2:40:32 PM): back
radiohead_euphoria (2:41:15 PM): k well I've been sorta holding a covo with myself here so review and tell me what you think
radiohead_euphoria (2:41:25 PM): *convo
wild4u2crazy4u (2:41:29 PM): lol ok
radiohead_euphoria (2:41:44 PM): do you have any invites yet in gmail?
radiohead_euphoria (2:41:56 PM): I ony have 1 left
wild4u2crazy4u (2:41:59 PM): uh i dont think so since i dunno
radiohead_euphoria (2:41:59 PM): I think I'll save it
radiohead_euphoria (2:42:02 PM): fur someone especial
wild4u2crazy4u (2:42:03 PM): ok
radiohead_euphoria (2:42:11 PM): or I'll invite myself and then get more and more mwuahahahaha
radiohead_euphoria (2:42:21 PM): hows that
wild4u2crazy4u (2:42:24 PM): ok
radiohead_euphoria (2:42:54 PM): you think I could, they might have protection agin that sorta thing
wild4u2crazy4u (2:43:07 PM): u actually can't
radiohead_euphoria (2:43:15 PM): you don't have invites do you?
wild4u2crazy4u (2:43:48 PM): u asked like three times already! how do u know when u have invites?radiohead_euphoria (2:45:22 PM): when you go to gmail on the side under all the folders and contacts, y'know 'compose mail, inbox, ect.' there should be a thing saying Invite 6(or so) friends to Gmail.
radiohead_euphoria (2:45:42 PM): er some like that
wild4u2crazy4u (2:46:48 PM): no i don't have invites
radiohead_euphoria (2:48:09 PM): well when you do will you invite on of my throwaway emails on like yahoo er somethin.
wild4u2crazy4u (2:48:26 PM): uh ok
radiohead_euphoria (2:49:00 PM): spank you
wild4u2crazy4u (2:49:10 PM): vel come
radiohead_euphoria (2:55:31 PM): ever heard of trillian
radiohead_euphoria (3:00:01 PM): yo

love and idle chit chat

2004-12-12T23:59:00.000-10:00

continued from 12-11-04. . . . . .

wild4u2crazy4u (12:00:29 AM): i doubt you will recieve it and what i'm about to say will show why. This letter and not showing it is wat started this whole discussion
radiohead_euphoria (12:01:46 AM): true, but you still haven't said what you said you would say
wild4u2crazy4u (12:02:16 AM): i know, i was merely waiting to hear your opinions
wild4u2crazy4u (12:02:27 AM): i'll say it now
wild4u2crazy4u (12:02:29 AM): So my grades can be better. Who's going to connect that to my feeling down? What sucks is the fact that I feel deathly umcomfortable talking to anyone about this because of the many times i got blown off when seeking help. And, what makes it worse, no one really understands how or why I can't talk about these feelings. I barely talk to my doctor about them. There is a side in me (a side I most relate to, personally) that is not typical. It is the side that dominates my mind. I grew accustom to hiding this side of me in the two lonely years without help. Those ruined me to expressing my feelings to others, including my counselors and best friends
wild4u2crazy4u (12:03:20 AM): that was meant to be merely best friend
radiohead_euphoria (12:08:26 AM): what do you want me to do Rene'e, you won't try to tell me, I haven't asked you to, I really wish you would, but if you can't or you won't then I can't make you, my point is you haven't tried, not in years, and I'm not the same person I was, I really wish you would believe in me enough to confide in me, that you would try to trust me like I trust you.
radiohead_euphoria (12:09:03 AM): what do you want me to say
wild4u2crazy4u (12:09:07 AM): it's come to a point where I don't trust my own judgements in the matter
wild4u2crazy4u (12:09:28 AM): I just want you to know the reason why you wont get the letter
radiohead_euphoria (12:10:05 AM): Rene'e you can't just hide inside yourself for the rest of your life because you're afraid to get hurt.
wild4u2crazy4u (12:10:55 AM): NO that not why i hide inside myself, I'm already getting hurt
radiohead_euphoria (12:11:05 AM): what does your judgement say?
radiohead_euphoria (12:11:15 AM): who is hurting you?
radiohead_euphoria (12:11:17 AM): me?
wild4u2crazy4u (12:11:24 AM): me i'm hurting myself
radiohead_euphoria (12:11:57 AM): I wish I could hold you right now
wild4u2crazy4u (12:12:03 AM): Wanna know why Sam was so important?
radiohead_euphoria (12:12:08 AM): why
wild4u2crazy4u (12:13:57 AM): because he was a slip of judgement, which i doubt will happen again and he responded different from everyone, because of this I was capable in showing him some of my feeling. You know, He's the only one i freely showed an episode of depression to?
wild4u2crazy4u (12:14:13 AM): that was why it hurt so much for him to leave
wild4u2crazy4u (12:14:29 AM): this is the most open i've been to you
radiohead_euphoria (12:15:39 AM): It's hurting you to hide inside yourself, if a slip in your judgement brought so much good, than having it there in the first place is obviously wrong
radiohead_euphoria (12:16:09 AM): thats only what I feel, please dont go back inside again
wild4u2crazy4u (12:16:21 AM): but it also caused me more grief than it would have
wild4u2crazy4u (12:16:56 AM): i am getting help
radiohead_euphoria (12:17:17 AM): but can't you see the good it's done you as well? We wouldn't be having this conversation if he hadn't left
wild4u2crazy4u (12:17:36 AM): i do see
wild4u2crazy4u (12:18:10 AM): one person didn't make up for the 7 who ruined my openess
radiohead_euphoria (12:18:10 AM): you have changed for he better sinces hes been gone I see everytime I talk to you
wild4u2crazy4u (12:18:26 AM): yes i know
radiohead_euphoria (12:19:10 AM): someday you must let that go, start anew
wild4u2crazy4u (12:19:34 AM): it's quite ironic that to get out a painful splinter that you have to dig deeper (this metaphor doesn't justify the reality but it does translate the message)
wild4u2crazy4u (12:19:38 AM): i know!
radiohead_euphoria (12:22:12 AM): this too shall pass, and after the splinter is gone, all one can feel is relief. isn't it worth it to risk some pain in order to save yourrself from a lifetime full of it? the skin will grow back new and stronger than before.
wild4u2crazy4u (12:23:27 AM): but i'll always have a lifetime of pain, it just won't be destroying me when the splinter is gone
wild4u2crazy4u (12:24:05 AM): thats why if i had someone like sam i would not withstand the pain alone
wild4u2crazy4u (12:24:20 AM): despite still having the splinter
radiohead_euphoria (12:25:48 AM): renee you have that strength in yourself, I know you do, or I wouldn't have said all that I said to you tonight
wild4u2crazy4u (12:26:16 AM): do u know? we're still at the fringe of the problem
wild4u2crazy4u (12:26:50 AM): sorta
radiohead_euphoria (12:28:28 AM): what do you want to do
radiohead_euphoria (12:28:59 AM): will you tell me the problem
wild4u2crazy4u (12:29:11 AM): no i can't
radiohead_euphoria (12:30:22 AM): why don't we just talk then, it's good for you to talk at least about how you feel, I can't ask for anything more
wild4u2crazy4u (12:30:36 AM): i guess
wild4u2crazy4u (12:30:58 AM): i wish i could pause time how about u?
radiohead_euphoria (12:31:26 AM): every day
radiohead_euphoria (12:32:29 AM): I wish I could stay here forever, but not here
radiohead_euphoria (12:32:55 AM): I don't know if that makes sense
wild4u2crazy4u (12:33:11 AM): *shrug*
radiohead_euphoria (12:33:34 AM): you're going back inside now
wild4u2crazy4u (12:34:03 AM): u noticed
wild4u2crazy4u (12:34:17 AM): actually i stopped crying
radiohead_euphoria (12:34:25 AM): it's like running head on into a brick wall just when you pick up some speed. thats the kind of thing you notice.
radiohead_euphoria (12:34:38 AM): so didi I
wild4u2crazy4u (12:34:47 AM): u were crying?
radiohead_euphoria (12:35:19 AM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (12:35:24 AM): like a three year old girl with a scraped knee
radiohead_euphoria (12:35:51 AM): sorry I had to put that in, I don't cry very often
wild4u2crazy4u (12:36:24 AM): u know, this never would have happened on the phone
radiohead_euphoria (12:36:34 AM): know when I started crying?
wild4u2crazy4u (12:36:47 AM): when
radiohead_euphoria (12:36:57 AM): "that was meant to be merely best friend"
wild4u2crazy4u (12:37:11 AM): why?
radiohead_euphoria (12:37:14 AM): how bout you
radiohead_euphoria (12:37:26 AM): me?
wild4u2crazy4u (12:38:29 AM): i was crying pretty much the whole time, i don't remember when i started
wild4u2crazy4u (12:38:38 AM): why did that line make you cry?
radiohead_euphoria (12:39:07 AM): I guess I sorta felt like I was hurting you.
wild4u2crazy4u (12:39:32 AM): i see
radiohead_euphoria (12:40:07 AM): said he blind man to his deaf daughter
wild4u2crazy4u (12:40:12 AM): hmp
radiohead_euphoria (12:40:19 AM): sorry
radiohead_euphoria (12:40:23 AM): *the
radiohead_euphoria (12:40:34 AM): sorry
wild4u2crazy4u (12:41:23 AM): u know wat made me open up to sam after i told him about my depression?
radiohead_euphoria (12:41:39 AM): wat
wild4u2crazy4u (12:41:41 AM): he said that he didn't understand
radiohead_euphoria (12:41:52 AM): no one does
wild4u2crazy4u (12:42:08 AM): but he actually said it, no one does
radiohead_euphoria (12:42:57 AM): takes a brave person to admit they don't understand
wild4u2crazy4u (12:43:03 AM): yes
wild4u2crazy4u (12:43:08 AM): exactly
radiohead_euphoria (12:43:57 AM): I know I haven't been that brave, I'm sorry
wild4u2crazy4u (12:44:14 AM): thats ok, he was the only one
wild4u2crazy4u (12:44:34 AM): my letter is three pages long
wild4u2crazy4u (12:44:41 AM): small print
wild4u2crazy4u (12:45:35 AM): you know the song eight easy steps by Alanis Morissette?
radiohead_euphoria (12:45:42 AM): yes
wild4u2crazy4u (12:46:44 AM): i just heard the line "how do you keep smiling when your thinking of killing yourself" or something like that an i thought, "i already mastered that!"
radiohead_euphoria (12:47:58 AM): i think i've had that down since i was 7
wild4u2crazy4u (12:48:04 AM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (12:48:13 AM): im serious
wild4u2crazy4u (12:48:19 AM): i know
wild4u2crazy4u (12:48:29 AM): i didn't actually laugh
radiohead_euphoria (12:49:03 AM): odd huh
wild4u2crazy4u (12:49:18 AM): yes...
radiohead_euphoria (12:49:48 AM): I was just thinking of the fishtank
wild4u2crazy4u (12:49:56 AM): yes?
radiohead_euphoria (12:50:40 AM): it's so tranquil, and yet looking back over our conversation, well, talk about polar opposites.
wild4u2crazy4u (12:51:36 AM): maybe it was the fish, they're gone now, just like the heat of the convo
radiohead_euphoria (12:52:17 AM): sad, to see such a flame, and watch it fade.
wild4u2crazy4u (12:52:36 AM): i don't get ur meaning
radiohead_euphoria (12:54:17 AM): well it was such a flame, and now, well it's like running into a brick wall.
radiohead_euphoria (12:54:51 AM): and we're just floating, like fish.
wild4u2crazy4u (12:55:11 AM): yes i see now
wild4u2crazy4u (12:56:11 AM): i love my cat
radiohead_euphoria (12:56:36 AM): it's a bittersweet symphony this life
radiohead_euphoria (12:57:22 AM): i love your cat too
wild4u2crazy4u (12:57:26 AM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (12:57:46 AM): i also love cheese
radiohead_euphoria (12:58:00 AM): dearly
wild4u2crazy4u (12:58:06 AM): cheese is good i'm getting a headache
radiohead_euphoria (12:58:24 AM): cheese is more than good
radiohead_euphoria (12:58:40 AM): do you have unprocessed honey
radiohead_euphoria (12:58:55 AM): 1 tsp helps with headaches
wild4u2crazy4u (12:58:57 AM): uh i dont believe so
wild4u2crazy4u (12:59:10 AM): good to know though
radiohead_euphoria (12:59:13 AM): I have unprocessed honey
wild4u2crazy4u (12:59:22 AM): well good for u
radiohead_euphoria (12:59:23 AM): it really werks
radiohead_euphoria (12:59:41 AM): I like that
radiohead_euphoria (1:00:05 AM): it's such a versatile phrase
radiohead_euphoria (1:01:23 AM): funny though, it's hard nowadays to say "good for you" and actually mean it, it always comes out sounding mean or sarcastic or jaded
wild4u2crazy4u (1:01:32 AM): did you notice how technical i was talking during the convo
wild4u2crazy4u (1:01:38 AM): yes it does
radiohead_euphoria (1:01:41 AM): yes I did
wild4u2crazy4u (1:01:54 AM): u thought it was sarcasm
radiohead_euphoria (1:02:46 AM): yes well that or pissyness, don't forget pissyness, and I didn't believe that was all of it.
radiohead_euphoria (1:03:34 AM): I've tried to say it though, and it doesn't feel right
wild4u2crazy4u (1:03:44 AM): say wat?
radiohead_euphoria (1:03:54 AM): "good for you"
wild4u2crazy4u (1:03:59 AM): o
radiohead_euphoria (1:04:02 AM): was it sarcasm?
wild4u2crazy4u (1:04:30 AM): nah, more neutral, like my sures
radiohead_euphoria (1:05:11 AM): were you angry?
radiohead_euphoria (1:05:18 AM): about what I said
radiohead_euphoria (1:05:46 AM): honestly
wild4u2crazy4u (1:06:10 AM): um, i could have been but , maybe i was a little offended
radiohead_euphoria (1:06:45 AM): oh, thats what I meant, couldn't think of the right word
wild4u2crazy4u (1:06:56 AM): o
radiohead_euphoria (1:07:12 AM): will you think about it
wild4u2crazy4u (1:07:25 AM): about wat?
radiohead_euphoria (1:07:34 AM): what I said
wild4u2crazy4u (1:07:55 AM): the whole lying to myself?
radiohead_euphoria (1:11:01 AM): you misunderstand, not lying to yourself, being honest with yourself, loving yourself. although lying is a term that doesn't really convey my meaning, it's more just not facing yourself, good and bad, avoiding maybe. it's a hard quality to put a name to
wild4u2crazy4u (1:12:29 AM): yes i will think about it, though i think that i'm being honest to myself (or at least trying to be)
radiohead_euphoria (1:13:01 AM): thats what matters
radiohead_euphoria (1:13:07 AM): and thank you
wild4u2crazy4u (1:14:16 AM): one reason that i like siren os songs so much is because alot of the songs apply to me
radiohead_euphoria (1:14:52 AM): yea
wild4u2crazy4u (1:14:55 AM): of*
radiohead_euphoria (1:15:14 AM): lol
wild4u2crazy4u (1:15:36 AM): wat u laughing at?
radiohead_euphoria (1:16:33 AM): i didn't laugh, I just wanted to put that in somewhere
wild4u2crazy4u (1:16:42 AM): o y?
radiohead_euphoria (1:18:39 AM): I like the whole lol thing, the way people use it even when they're not laughing, it's like fake laughing over the internet. kinda reminds me that people are still people no matter what medium they use to communicate
wild4u2crazy4u (1:18:54 AM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (1:18:54 AM): not that that makes any sense whatsoever
wild4u2crazy4u (1:20:21 AM): well its a type of conveyance, not that the person is laughing more than the message was funny/ironic/hysterical/or even neutral (in my case at least)
radiohead_euphoria (1:22:48 AM): and sometimes it's just a filler, have you ever noticed that no matter how much one person may like to talk or another may like to listen, it still feels like you have to take turns. like, I spoke now you, and vice versa.
wild4u2crazy4u (1:23:05 AM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (1:23:10 AM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (1:23:30 AM): see, a filler
wild4u2crazy4u (1:23:37 AM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (1:23:49 AM): yes
wild4u2crazy4u (1:24:33 AM): neutral is my home base, have you noticed?
radiohead_euphoria (1:25:01 AM): yea, I wonder what mine is
wild4u2crazy4u (1:25:35 AM): insanity?
wild4u2crazy4u (1:26:08 AM): actually being neutral is more flexible than people think
radiohead_euphoria (1:26:12 AM): prolly
radiohead_euphoria (1:26:32 AM): hence the term neutral
wild4u2crazy4u (1:26:42 AM): lol yes
radiohead_euphoria (1:27:34 AM): is there a slang for a light giggle or chuckle
wild4u2crazy4u (1:27:59 AM): yes, lol works, i just used it for a smil
radiohead_euphoria (1:28:11 AM): lol
wild4u2crazy4u (1:28:11 AM): giggle can be gg
radiohead_euphoria (1:28:17 AM): kewl
radiohead_euphoria (1:28:20 AM): gg
wild4u2crazy4u (1:28:26 AM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (1:28:46 AM): what about a sinister giggle
wild4u2crazy4u (1:29:14 AM): *shrug* its actually good that lol is so versitile
radiohead_euphoria (1:29:49 AM): i prefer rotflmao
wild4u2crazy4u (1:30:39 AM): i see
radiohead_euphoria (1:30:44 AM): singg
radiohead_euphoria (1:30:50 AM): hows that
wild4u2crazy4u (1:31:18 AM): sing? nah i thought u actually meant sing at first
radiohead_euphoria (1:31:26 AM): gg
radiohead_euphoria (1:32:13 AM): some things just can't be expressed through the digital medium
wild4u2crazy4u (1:32:20 AM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (1:32:46 AM): gsg
radiohead_euphoria (1:32:49 AM): ?
wild4u2crazy4u (1:32:58 AM): wat?
radiohead_euphoria (1:32:58 AM): sinisgg
wild4u2crazy4u (1:33:10 AM): o that
radiohead_euphoria (1:33:19 AM): i can't get over it
radiohead_euphoria (1:33:37 AM): there has to be something less vauge
wild4u2crazy4u (1:33:39 AM): actually i'm not sure wat a sinister gg sounds like
radiohead_euphoria (1:34:21 AM): kinda like mwuahahaha, but toned down a little bit
radiohead_euphoria (1:34:39 AM): think pinky and the brain
wild4u2crazy4u (1:34:43 AM): how about hehhehhehheh
radiohead_euphoria (1:34:59 AM): very close,
radiohead_euphoria (1:36:39 AM): have you ever played ice cream factory
wild4u2crazy4u (1:36:51 AM): yes, alot
wild4u2crazy4u (1:37:04 AM): theres a good cheat to that
radiohead_euphoria (1:37:21 AM): what is it
radiohead_euphoria (1:38:05 AM): I am the Grand Master
wild4u2crazy4u (1:38:18 AM): good for u
radiohead_euphoria (1:39:47 AM): its hard to play with a touch pad
wild4u2crazy4u (1:39:54 AM): yes
wild4u2crazy4u (1:40:02 AM): go to neohelper.net
wild4u2crazy4u (1:40:11 AM): neohelpers.net*
radiohead_euphoria (1:45:15 AM): heY! it works
wild4u2crazy4u (1:45:38 AM): yea
wild4u2crazy4u (1:45:43 AM): its cool
radiohead_euphoria (1:46:10 AM): yea you gotta be fast though
wild4u2crazy4u (1:46:45 AM): yea u do
wild4u2crazy4u (2:02:46 AM): wats ur favorite neopet game?
radiohead_euphoria (2:03:17 AM): ice cream factory, then the stock market
wild4u2crazy4u (2:03:32 AM): i should prolly get to bed jess
wild4u2crazy4u (2:03:37 AM): g'night
radiohead_euphoria (2:03:46 AM): gnight

11 or so hours later....

wild4u2crazy4u (1:10:17 PM): hey can you come over today?

the internet, IMviroinments and love

2004-12-11T23:59:00.000-10:00

radiohead_euphoria (12:35:43 PM): yo I werk at 2 today, I'll be onine till 130

later that evening......

radiohead_euphoria (8:28:45 PM): man walks around a railroad track
wild4u2crazy4u (8:28:59 PM): really
radiohead_euphoria (8:29:05 PM): welcome to the new world order
radiohead_euphoria (8:29:18 PM): no job no home no peace no rest
wild4u2crazy4u (8:29:27 PM): o
radiohead_euphoria (8:29:39 PM): and the highways are black tonight
radiohead_euphoria (8:30:01 PM): nobody's foolin nobody as to where it goes
radiohead_euphoria (8:30:13 PM): sittin here in the campfire light
radiohead_euphoria (8:30:32 PM): lookin for the ghost of old Tom Joad
radiohead_euphoria (8:31:25 PM): Sorry, listening to Rage
wild4u2crazy4u (8:31:45 PM): o well i'm watching friends
radiohead_euphoria (8:31:54 PM): You like Live don't you?
wild4u2crazy4u (8:32:23 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (8:32:38 PM): I'll send you a song I have of theirs
radiohead_euphoria (8:32:48 PM): I don't think you have itwild
4u2crazy4u (8:32:55 PM): ok
wild4u2crazy4u (8:33:02 PM): wat one is it
radiohead_euphoria (8:33:22 PM): lightning crashes the acoustic version
wild4u2crazy4u (8:33:42 PM): ur right
radiohead_euphoria (8:33:58 PM): It's really good
radiohead_euphoria (8:34:22 PM): You busy right now?
wild4u2crazy4u (8:34:39 PM): watching friends and writing
radiohead_euphoria (8:35:05 PM): what episode
wild4u2crazy4u (8:35:26 PM): where rachel's mom visits
radiohead_euphoria (8:35:42 PM): kewl, don't think I saw it
wild4u2crazy4u (8:36:20 PM): season 2
radiohead_euphoria (8:37:03 PM): ohhhhhh, didn't see much of season 2
wild4u2crazy4u (8:38:47 PM): neither did i
radiohead_euphoria (8:39:03 PM): hence the watching write?
wild4u2crazy4u (8:39:55 PM): huh
radiohead_euphoria (8:40:09 PM): tehehehe
radiohead_euphoria (8:47:33 PM): wow this is takin a long time
radiohead_euphoria (8:47:59 PM): AOL SUCKS DONKEY DICK!!!!!!!! mawtherfalkers
radiohead_euphoria (8:50:11 PM): I can't funking surf the web while it downloads!!!!
wild4u2crazy4u (8:52:09 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (8:52:20 PM): Death To AOL
wild4u2crazy4u (8:54:42 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (8:55:31 PM): do you reaize it's been on 15% for he past 10 minutes?????!??!?!!!!!?!??!
radiohead_euphoria (8:55:47 PM): oh well NOW it's 16
wild4u2crazy4u (8:56:45 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (8:57:03 PM): grrrrrrrr............arrgggggghhh
wild4u2crazy4u (9:00:12 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (9:00:58 PM): La la lal al lalalalalal lal lal lal omg did you see that
radiohead_euphoria (9:02:33 PM): I hate AOL, it sucks and it's expensive
radiohead_euphoria (9:03:18 PM): And it's ver slow
radiohead_euphoria (9:03:36 PM): it's a bittersweet symphony this life
radiohead_euphoria (9:04:41 PM): trying to make ends meet
radiohead_euphoria (9:04:52 PM): you're a slave to money then you die
wild4u2crazy4u (9:04:58 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (9:05:34 PM): The Verve - Bittersweet Symphony - Urban Hymns
radiohead_euphoria (9:05:41 PM): Good Song
wild4u2crazy4u (9:06:41 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (9:07:14 PM): like my status?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:07:43 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (9:08:48 PM): WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 18%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
radiohead_euphoria (9:09:12 PM): *dances around like a munky on a music box*
radiohead_euphoria (9:10:04 PM): Oh My Gawd!!! 21%
radiohead_euphoria (9:10:09 PM): 22
radiohead_euphoria (9:10:38 PM): 23
radiohead_euphoria (9:10:44 PM): 24
radiohead_euphoria (9:10:58 PM): *faints*
radiohead_euphoria (9:11:27 PM): *moans* 25% what extacy
radiohead_euphoria (9:15:36 PM): oh lord won't you buy me a mercedes benz
radiohead_euphoria (9:16:40 PM): my friends all drive porches I must make amends
radiohead_euphoria (9:17:01 PM): work hard all my lifetime no help from my friends
radiohead_euphoria (9:17:54 PM): so lord won't you buy me a mercedes benz
radiohead_euphoria (9:18:45 PM): oh lord won't you buy me a night on the town
radiohead_euphoria (9:19:05 PM): I'm counting on you lord please don't let me down
radiohead_euphoria (9:19:19 PM): prove that ou lov me and buy the next round
radiohead_euphoria (9:19:41 PM): so lord won't you buy me a night on the town
radiohead_euphoria (9:19:47 PM): everybody now
wild4u2crazy4u (9:21:13 PM): sorry cant
radiohead_euphoria (9:21:19 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (9:27:23 PM): omnem crede diem tibi diluxisse supremum
radiohead_euphoria (9:31:51 PM): want to read a poem of mine, it's an old one I just found.
radiohead_euphoria (9:32:59 PM): stupid AOL

(the sims2 and various othe IMvoironments on yahoo messenger)

wild4u2crazy4u (10:01:26 PM): yo
radiohead_euphoria (10:01:51 PM): got kicked off and then someoe was on the phone
wild4u2crazy4u (10:02:06 PM): i see
radiohead_euphoria (10:02:44 PM): said the blind man to his deaf daughter.
wild4u2crazy4u (10:02:54 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (10:03:21 PM): got that one from you I believe
wild4u2crazy4u (10:03:39 PM): yes you did
radiohead_euphoria (10:04:20 PM): weird
wild4u2crazy4u (10:04:33 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (10:04:46 PM): he's kinda cute
wild4u2crazy4u (10:04:57 PM): lmao
radiohead_euphoria (10:05:07 PM): what the fuck!!!!!!!
wild4u2crazy4u (10:05:16 PM): lmao
radiohead_euphoria (10:05:29 PM): grrrrrr......arrrrrggggghhh
radiohead_euphoria (10:05:43 PM): this is freaky
wild4u2crazy4u (10:05:47 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (10:05:55 PM): lol
wild4u2crazy4u (10:06:10 PM): skanky
radiohead_euphoria (10:06:19 PM): psyco
radiohead_euphoria (10:06:33 PM): ha! I'll kick ur ass
radiohead_euphoria (10:06:38 PM): pro
radiohead_euphoria (10:06:55 PM): weird
radiohead_euphoria (10:07:17 PM): been to neopets?
wild4u2crazy4u (10:07:56 PM): not lately
radiohead_euphoria (10:08:01 PM): dollars
radiohead_euphoria (10:08:08 PM): sry
radiohead_euphoria (10:08:22 PM): my pets are dying
radiohead_euphoria (10:08:33 PM): I think it's a bit dramatic
radiohead_euphoria (10:08:37 PM): baby
wild4u2crazy4u (10:09:14 PM): o
radiohead_euphoria (10:09:40 PM): sorry the poeple keep telling me to type stuff
radiohead_euphoria (10:09:46 PM): dollars
radiohead_euphoria (10:09:50 PM): pro
radiohead_euphoria (10:09:54 PM): baby
wild4u2crazy4u (10:09:56 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (10:10:07 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (10:10:11 PM): lmao
radiohead_euphoria (10:10:14 PM): weird
wild4u2crazy4u (10:10:19 PM): very
radiohead_euphoria (10:10:23 PM): yes
wild4u2crazy4u (10:10:28 PM): agreed
radiohead_euphoria (10:10:50 PM): doctor
radiohead_euphoria (10:10:57 PM): wtf
radiohead_euphoria (10:11:17 PM): let's see som' else
radiohead_euphoria (10:11:47 PM): mmmmmmmmmmm..... mac and cheese *droool*
radiohead_euphoria (10:12:14 PM): *excessive salivation*
wild4u2crazy4u (10:12:49 PM): lol
wild4u2crazy4u (10:12:55 PM): cool
radiohead_euphoria (10:13:13 PM): ok not what I thought it was
radiohead_euphoria (10:13:35 PM): hehehehe fishies!!!
wild4u2crazy4u (10:13:51 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (10:14:14 PM): bubblesbubblesbubbles!
radiohead_euphoria (10:15:54 PM): Jesus A. Christ these neopets eat alot!
wild4u2crazy4u (10:16:22 PM): lol don't buy them food caz they can't really die
wild4u2crazy4u (10:16:36 PM): i haven't fed mine in 3 months
radiohead_euphoria (10:16:39 PM): true
radiohead_euphoria (10:19:01 PM): I'm not feeding them anymore dammit
wild4u2crazy4u (10:19:27 PM): good
radiohead_euphoria (10:20:05 PM): I'm gonna open a shop and sell all their food those mawtherfalkers
wild4u2crazy4u (10:20:23 PM): ok
wild4u2crazy4u (10:24:35 PM):
wild4u2crazy4u (10:24:42 PM): ha i remember
radiohead_euphoria (10:24:51 PM): purdy
radiohead_euphoria (10:24:58 PM): remember what
wild4u2crazy4u (10:25:21 PM): how to make the flower
radiohead_euphoria (10:25:37 PM): how?
wild4u2crazy4u (10:25:48 PM): like this
radiohead_euphoria (10:26:37 PM): put spaces between the commands
radiohead_euphoria (10:29:35 PM): hau do ewe mayk the rows
wild4u2crazy4u (10:30:19 PM): um you do know that if you hold your mouse over tha rose, you can learn how?
wild4u2crazy4u (10:30:30 PM): right?
radiohead_euphoria (10:31:40 PM): yes but I liek to spell thengs wrung
wild4u2crazy4u (10:32:08 PM): whats the rose gotta do with spelling rong?
radiohead_euphoria (10:32:50 PM): it was n exskuus
wild4u2crazy4u (10:33:35 PM): not much of one
radiohead_euphoria (10:34:12 PM): its hart to thenc of wais to spell thinks rong
wild4u2crazy4u (10:34:57 PM): wealy? i don findd it hared
radiohead_euphoria (10:36:10 PM): noe' in wais thaa thai still sownd liek themsaylvs
wild4u2crazy4u (10:37:07 PM): where's the task bar on gmail?
radiohead_euphoria (10:38:50 PM): i dowt no what ewr taakng abowt
wild4u2crazy4u (10:38:58 PM): thats ok
radiohead_euphoria (10:39:21 PM): owe kay
wild4u2crazy4u (10:40:12 PM): what time zone are we?
radiohead_euphoria (10:40:49 PM): Hawayan standurd thyme
wild4u2crazy4u (10:41:00 PM): thats wat i thought
radiohead_euphoria (10:41:39 PM):
wild4u2crazy4u (10:44:50 PM): hey!
radiohead_euphoria (10:46:12 PM): doe'nt noe wat hapind
radiohead_euphoria (10:46:22 PM):
wild4u2crazy4u (10:46:43 PM): it doesn't like u
wild4u2crazy4u (10:46:46 PM): ?
radiohead_euphoria (10:47:18 PM): a rows buy eni uthur naym wood smell ass suwheat
radiohead_euphoria (10:47:25 PM): hehehe
radiohead_euphoria (10:47:44 PM): eht hayts me
radiohead_euphoria (10:48:47 PM): eye hayts eht tu
wild4u2crazy4u (10:49:02 PM): of course
radiohead_euphoria (10:49:06 PM): what r ewe doowing
wild4u2crazy4u (10:49:22 PM): writing....about sam...and other things
radiohead_euphoria (10:50:05 PM): yes ewe kneed tu gmail me tha
wild4u2crazy4u (10:50:26 PM): Sam would have been here right now and I would not have been writing this. That bugs the crap out if me. But he left three months early because of my dad. To me, Sam was like suddenly flying after being stuck in a deep hole, only to fall back into the hole right when you began to enjoy it. And when back in that hole, after the great feeling of flying, everything seems worse and you get unhappy and begin to miss flying. That is exactly how I feel. Though he was only here for a month, he left a long lasting impression and helped me realize what I want.
radiohead_euphoria (10:50:38 PM): thes es haar
radiohead_euphoria (10:52:16 PM): peepol cum entu ewer lyph four uh reesun uh seesun oar uh lyphthyme
radiohead_euphoria (10:52:44 PM): ay thing sam caym four uh reesun
radiohead_euphoria (10:54:03 PM): tu sho ewe tha the wai ewe wer feelin was knot the wai ewe wood alwais haff tu feel
radiohead_euphoria (10:54:37 PM): knot the wai ewe alwais will feel
wild4u2crazy4u (10:54:57 PM): how can we be sure that theres a reason?
radiohead_euphoria (10:56:33 PM): hee pulld ewe owt uv tha howle knot tu put ewe bak agin but tu showe ewe hau tu git owt
radiohead_euphoria (10:57:17 PM): ewe jest towld me the reesun
radiohead_euphoria (10:57:26 PM): he left a long lasting impression and helped me realize what I want
radiohead_euphoria (10:57:34 PM): " "
wild4u2crazy4u (10:58:09 PM): nvm you didn't understand the question
radiohead_euphoria (10:58:27 PM): elaborate
wild4u2crazy4u (10:58:36 PM): thats hard
radiohead_euphoria (10:59:18 PM): well, only time will tell.
wild4u2crazy4u (11:01:43 PM): How can i feel the same thing i felt for sam when there's no one to be subject to it?
radiohead_euphoria (11:05:42 PM): as bitter as you feel about him leaving you so early, aren't thou glad thou hast known him at all, aren't thou changed because of him? The universe hast granted thou a teacher, even for so short a time, art thou not grateful for the lesson?
radiohead_euphoria (11:06:37 PM): dost thou not see fit to take it to heart?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:07:01 PM): u didn't answer the question, which btw, generated by ur answer to my paragraph
radiohead_euphoria (11:08:30 PM): first, explain to me how you feel about sam
wild4u2crazy4u (11:08:56 PM): do i have to? its sorta personal
radiohead_euphoria (11:09:12 PM): not phsically
wild4u2crazy4u (11:09:22 PM): wat?
radiohead_euphoria (11:10:18 PM): not the attraction, how you feel for him in your heart, at least how he made you feel.
wild4u2crazy4u (11:11:39 PM): that's wat i mean, in the long letter i wrote, theres only a small paragraph about that.
radiohead_euphoria (11:13:24 PM): put it into cheesy laymens terms you don't need to elaborate, do you love him, admire him
wild4u2crazy4u (11:13:44 PM): yes
wild4u2crazy4u (11:14:29 PM): He was my light in the dark.
radiohead_euphoria (11:14:38 PM): do you believe that he loved you
wild4u2crazy4u (11:14:50 PM): i'm not sure
radiohead_euphoria (11:15:04 PM): cared for you
wild4u2crazy4u (11:15:05 PM): that too is a paragraph in my letter
wild4u2crazy4u (11:15:18 PM): i think he might have
radiohead_euphoria (11:16:02 PM): "How can i feel the same thing i felt for sam when there's no one to be subject to it?" was the question, was it not?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:16:36 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (11:17:42 PM): Rene'e how on god's green earth can you honestly believe that there is no one to be subject to those feelings?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:18:14 PM): thats not the problem jess
radiohead_euphoria (11:18:21 PM): what is
wild4u2crazy4u (11:20:07 PM): wat i meant is that there is very few people who can relate to me and even less that i can associate personally with. It's kinda hard to find them since majority are a type i can't stand on a character basis
wild4u2crazy4u (11:20:23 PM): a vast majority
radiohead_euphoria (11:21:00 PM): and it probably doesn't help that the one person you feel this way towards is miles away right?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:21:10 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (11:21:52 PM): Rene'e are you willing to hear what I think one of your main problems is?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:22:21 PM): sure
radiohead_euphoria (11:22:45 PM): All of this affection is misdirected.
wild4u2crazy4u (11:22:53 PM): meaning?
radiohead_euphoria (11:31:28 PM): meaning, if you need to love someone, to be loved by someone in order to pull yourself out of this hole your in, they are sitting right in the sea o your pants Rene'e, be the light in your dark. love yourself. It's not selfish the be the subject of your own affections, especially when those affections are lacking from others. If you first love yourself, respect yourself, come to terms and be honest with all your virtues and faults, then loving others will be even easier. I don't mean feeding your ego, I mean being brutally honest with yourself about the qualities you admire and the ones you detest in yourself, and believe me we all have some of those, and if you find something you don't like don't be afraid to face it, to change it.
wild4u2crazy4u (11:32:26 PM): hmm
radiohead_euphoria (11:33:59 PM): Become the person you want to be by working towards it, and working hard. This, I hope, will give you some measure of peace. and I hope you take these words seriously, I'm saying this because I love you and even if I don't understand why you feel this way I understand how you feel and I honestly believe that doing this will help you, if you'd only try.
wild4u2crazy4u (11:34:51 PM): question?
radiohead_euphoria (11:34:59 PM): fire away
wild4u2crazy4u (11:35:14 PM): I'm curious as to how you got this impression
radiohead_euphoria (11:36:16 PM): I've known you for many years Rene'e, we all lie to ourselves sometimes.
radiohead_euphoria (11:36:48 PM): I just see you hurting yourself
wild4u2crazy4u (11:37:03 PM): how do u see this?
radiohead_euphoria (11:38:57 PM): for one, by the way you answered my little rant, sarcastic, condescending, like I couldn't possibly know something about you you wouldn't care to admit, exactly the way I would have answered a few years ago.
radiohead_euphoria (11:40:18 PM): but it doesn't matter how you answer me, as long as you are honest with yourself, you can lie to everyone else but if you're honest with yourself it shows
wild4u2crazy4u (11:40:27 PM): not to be sarcasic or condescending, but I wonder how you picked that up from my writing, i'm not denying or admitting at this point of sentence
radiohead_euphoria (11:44:52 PM): it wasn't your answer, my darling, it was how you posed it. The phrasing, the way you said "question?" first before just asking. You phrased the question very coldly "(I'm curious as to) how you got this impression" and even your last "not to be sarcastic or condescending" very defensive.
wild4u2crazy4u (11:45:18 PM): sure
radiohead_euphoria (11:45:30 PM): sarcastic
wild4u2crazy4u (11:45:39 PM): how do you know?
radiohead_euphoria (11:49:19 PM): was I wrong? honestly Rene'e haven't we known each other long enough not to play games with each other, you can tell me I'm wrong as much as you like, and I may be, in fact I hope I am, but if I'm not and your lying to me about being sarcastic, the sarcasm itself is still the problem.
wild4u2crazy4u (11:51:36 PM): Actually, it was not sarcasm, do remember that I am a writer and am subject to talk in ways of much interpertation. Of course it mostly shows when writing and I usually aren't the one talking online, and sometimes my mood is such that I merely blab
radiohead_euphoria (11:52:05 PM): perhaps I misjudged, pissy might have been a better term
wild4u2crazy4u (11:52:10 PM): lets start on a different track
radiohead_euphoria (11:52:44 PM): I'm willing to, this has gotten quite immature hasn't it?
wild4u2crazy4u (11:54:08 PM): possibly, but i mostly changed to subject to correctly apply to what i think is important to say during this discussion, though you may deny it to be true, since, in fact, you Have known me for years
radiohead_euphoria (11:55:15 PM): I've an open mind, my dear.
wild4u2crazy4u (11:55:56 PM): it's actually part of my letter, though now that i think of it, the edges do show
radiohead_euphoria (11:56:54 PM): which letter
wild4u2crazy4u (11:57:58 PM): the one i'm writing about sam where my big paragraph came from. I do believe i told you that i'm writing... about sam... And Other Things
radiohead_euphoria (11:59:36 PM): yes but we are discussing this now right, I don't have this letter so when you refer to it I get a tad confused

to be continued . . . . .

stick, doodle and various other internet games

2004-12-09T23:59:00.000-10:00

radiohead_euphoria (1:43:37 PM): so, what do you think of me and my crow in a night club
wild4u2crazy4u (1:43:50 PM): i can't see it
radiohead_euphoria (1:45:09 PM): can you see me now
wild4u2crazy4u (1:45:14 PM): cool
wild4u2crazy4u (1:45:47 PM): i like that
radiohead_euphoria (1:46:32 PM): ooooooooh pitty flowers
radiohead_euphoria (1:46:44 PM): I think it fits
wild4u2crazy4u (1:46:58 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (1:47:20 PM): even with the crow
wild4u2crazy4u (1:47:38 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (1:47:54 PM): have you been on stick lately
wild4u2crazy4u (1:48:02 PM): no
wild4u2crazy4u (1:48:17 PM): u?
radiohead_euphoria (1:48:30 PM): last knight
wild4u2crazy4u (1:48:41 PM): cool
radiohead_euphoria (1:49:08 PM): you don' happen to remember any of my user names d'yu
wild4u2crazy4u (1:49:16 PM): meth angel
wild4u2crazy4u (1:49:22 PM): and dory
radiohead_euphoria (1:50:03 PM): hey dory i forgat aboot that one
wild4u2crazy4u (1:50:21 PM): remember shwangna
radiohead_euphoria (1:50:43 PM): omg yea
radiohead_euphoria (1:50:48 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (1:51:30 PM): gawd now all I need to remember are my passwords
wild4u2crazy4u (1:51:55 PM): swangna for ours i know that much
radiohead_euphoria (1:53:32 PM): log on stick
wild4u2crazy4u (1:53:38 PM): ok
wild4u2crazy4u (1:54:04 PM): wait nevermind
radiohead_euphoria (1:54:50 PM): the guys on stick say they've seen Zero
radiohead_euphoria (1:54:58 PM): and why not
wild4u2crazy4u (1:55:23 PM): cas georgies program that he gave me is on the other comp which isn't working wellradiohead_euphoria (1:56:57 PM): use command prompt
wild4u2crazy4u (1:57:04 PM): fine
radiohead_euphoria (1:57:38 PM): telnet mud.stick.org 9000
radiohead_euphoria (2:00:41 PM): what happened
wild4u2crazy4u (2:00:59 PM): i left
radiohead_euphoria (2:01:05 PM): why
wild4u2crazy4u (2:01:11 PM): caz
wild4u2crazy4u (2:01:15 PM): i felt like it
radiohead_euphoria (2:01:28 PM): I don't know what those freaks were doing
radiohead_euphoria (2:01:35 PM): what level were you
wild4u2crazy4u (2:01:50 PM): i forget
radiohead_euphoria (2:02:15 PM): Dory's only lvl 9
wild4u2crazy4u (2:02:25 PM): i'm higher
radiohead_euphoria (2:02:40 PM): I thnk ur higher than all mine
radiohead_euphoria (2:02:52 PM): I stopped playing afore yu did
wild4u2crazy4u (2:03:04 PM): yea
wild4u2crazy4u (2:04:36 PM): how are your bracelets?
radiohead_euphoria (2:06:15 PM): b-e-a-utiful darling
wild4u2crazy4u (2:06:24 PM): cool
radiohead_euphoria (2:06:49 PM): wow 7 imms on
wild4u2crazy4u (2:07:30 PM): wow
radiohead_euphoria (2:08:39 PM): its scary
wild4u2crazy4u (2:08:44 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (2:10:39 PM): hey santa claus is on
wild4u2crazy4u (2:10:50 PM): cool
radiohead_euphoria (2:11:21 PM): watcha doin
wild4u2crazy4u (2:11:31 PM): reading email
radiohead_euphoria (2:11:53 PM): gmail email
wild4u2crazy4u (2:12:01 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (2:12:18 PM): are you listening to music
wild4u2crazy4u (2:12:25 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (2:12:37 PM): well
wild4u2crazy4u (2:14:00 PM): wats the difference in being invited a friend and just switching over?radiohead_euphoria (2:14:29 PM): heh?
wild4u2crazy4u (2:14:40 PM): on gmail
radiohead_euphoria (2:14:57 PM): how do you just switch
radiohead_euphoria (2:15:16 PM): die ensigh die
wild4u2crazy4u (2:15:17 PM): i dunno, go to gmail.com and sign up
radiohead_euphoria (2:15:57 PM): can you
wild4u2crazy4u (2:16:37 PM): well, my cousin is thinking of it and yes i believe you can. so you don't know the difference i take it
radiohead_euphoria (2:17:20 PM): goto gmail.com do you see anyplace to sign up?
radiohead_euphoria (2:18:12 PM): only offering Gmail as part of a preview release and limited test (straight from the website)
radiohead_euphoria (2:18:25 PM): you can't just sign up
wild4u2crazy4u (2:18:31 PM): i can't unless i sign out which i don't want to do caz im writing an email
radiohead_euphoria (2:19:52 PM): I've been t the website (see above quote) you can't just sign up.
wild4u2crazy4u (2:20:09 PM): ok fine
radiohead_euphoria (2:20:56 PM): I'm listening to the Bend it soundtrack
wild4u2crazy4u (2:21:02 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (2:21:36 PM): and killing ensighs!
wild4u2crazy4u (2:21:42 PM): cool
radiohead_euphoria (2:21:55 PM): talk about multitasking
wild4u2crazy4u (2:23:07 PM): well, i;m working on my homework, talking to you, and writing an email.
radiohead_euphoria (2:23:21 PM): yeeeeeeehaaaaaaaw
wild4u2crazy4u (2:23:51 PM): id say, specially since i'm talking to u
radiohead_euphoria (2:24:03 PM): this music makes me want to dance
wild4u2crazy4u (2:24:26 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (2:24:27 PM): *dances around like a munky on a music box*
radiohead_euphoria (2:25:30 PM): haha you like that one? munky on a music box, I'm definetly using that one more often
wild4u2crazy4u (2:25:51 PM): ok
wild4u2crazy4u (2:26:06 PM): you know wat sucks\
radiohead_euphoria (2:26:13 PM): what
wild4u2crazy4u (2:27:06 PM): whenever i think of derrick, i think of sam, i'm sorry to bring up the subject but hey. I realized that the three major guys that i like all look alike
radiohead_euphoria (2:27:28 PM): what bout geore
radiohead_euphoria (2:27:35 PM): *george
radiohead_euphoria (2:27:53 PM): sowwy can spelt
wild4u2crazy4u (2:28:21 PM): well, i'm not sure wat he looks like and i'm not counting him cas it wasn't as big as the other three
radiohead_euphoria (2:28:48 PM): I know what he looks like, not like sam
radiohead_euphoria (2:29:07 PM): actually, now I think about it
radiohead_euphoria (2:29:12 PM): like
radiohead_euphoria (2:29:19 PM): INDIAN SAM
wild4u2crazy4u (2:29:25 PM): o no
radiohead_euphoria (2:29:27 PM): Mwuahahahahaha
wild4u2crazy4u (2:29:42 PM): derrick looks like a younger sam sorta
wild4u2crazy4u (2:30:00 PM): its mostly the hair
wild4u2crazy4u (2:32:08 PM): you don't have a pic of george anymore right?
radiohead_euphoria (2:32:24 PM): nope fraid not
wild4u2crazy4u (2:32:34 PM): thought so
radiohead_euphoria (2:36:25 PM): herro
wild4u2crazy4u (2:36:34 PM): huh
radiohead_euphoria (2:36:57 PM): hey can I call you I'm going offline
wild4u2crazy4u (2:37:08 PM): ok
radiohead_euphoria (2:37:24 PM): k be jus a min
wild4u2crazy4u (3:40:05 PM): shut up
radiohead_euphoria (3:40:25 PM): shut up what
wild4u2crazy4u (3:40:38 PM): ur status
wild4u2crazy4u (3:41:41 PM): y did you do that?
radiohead_euphoria (3:42:01 PM): so youd reconnize me
radiohead_euphoria (3:42:34 PM): like there was any possible chance you wouldn't
radiohead_euphoria (3:44:05 PM): damn
radiohead_euphoria (3:44:20 PM): got disconnected aqain
wild4u2crazy4u (3:44:23 PM): so did you read the contest 2 thing i sent u?
wild4u2crazy4u (3:44:36 PM): oh
radiohead_euphoria (3:44:45 PM): not yet
wild4u2crazy4u (3:44:52 PM): o ok
wild4u2crazy4u (3:45:46 PM): why don't we start on the website now?
radiohead_euphoria (3:45:46 PM): whatsit aboot
wild4u2crazy4u (3:46:04 PM): huh
radiohead_euphoria (3:46:29 PM): the contest
wild4u2crazy4u (3:47:01 PM): oh life lessons, ones about love and two is about life and what it's like
radiohead_euphoria (3:47:13 PM): kewl
wild4u2crazy4u (3:47:41 PM): do you want to start the website
radiohead_euphoria (3:47:50 PM): ok
radiohead_euphoria (3:48:05 PM): not quite sure how to start
radiohead_euphoria (3:48:16 PM): maybe brainstorming
wild4u2crazy4u (3:48:22 PM): ok
wild4u2crazy4u (3:48:33 PM): i'll get paper
radiohead_euphoria (3:49:13 PM): sall we doodle
radiohead_euphoria (3:49:31 PM): *shall
wild4u2crazy4u (3:50:12 PM): so we want a literary section and my beading website?
radiohead_euphoria (3:50:51 PM): and movie reviews independent and festival fims
wild4u2crazy4u (3:51:20 PM): forums
wild4u2crazy4u (3:51:51 PM): wats that last part?
radiohead_euphoria (3:52:45 PM): indie & festival movie reviews
wild4u2crazy4u (3:52:51 PM): ok
radiohead_euphoria (3:53:24 PM): and definetly music, there has to be a section on music
wild4u2crazy4u (3:54:51 PM): anything else?
radiohead_euphoria (3:54:56 PM): and like a find of the week/month kind of thing. yknow weird stuff from random internet searches or flea markets. we need alot of reader input.
wild4u2crazy4u (3:55:28 PM): explain
radiohead_euphoria (3:56:07 PM): and a section on charities, st.Judes, make trade fair, breast cancer reasearch
radiohead_euphoria (3:56:55 PM): oh and definetly word of the month.
radiohead_euphoria (3:57:30 PM): so what do we have for regular articles so far
wild4u2crazy4u (3:57:50 PM): huh
radiohead_euphoria (3:59:24 PM): music, literary, movies, charities
radiohead_euphoria (3:59:58 PM): people send in pictures or stories of interesting things
wild4u2crazy4u (4:00:13 PM): i think we'd do a better job if we were phsycally together
radiohead_euphoria (4:00:45 PM): prolly, but I archive all my IMs so Ican go over this later.
radiohead_euphoria (4:01:27 PM): people can send in poetry and short stories.
wild4u2crazy4u (4:01:56 PM): in the literary section
radiohead_euphoria (4:02:03 PM): right now we can just sort of float ideas
radiohead_euphoria (4:02:17 PM): precisely
wild4u2crazy4u (4:03:46 PM): so when are u not working ?
radiohead_euphoria (4:04:09 PM): if we use geocites with yahoo, we can start our own group and have a forum and maybe a chatroom
radiohead_euphoria (4:05:05 PM): I close tomarra on sat I work 11 - 8 and sun I werk 6 - 2
wild4u2crazy4u (4:05:33 PM): sunday come over
radiohead_euphoria (4:05:57 PM): after werk
wild4u2crazy4u (4:06:08 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (4:06:47 PM): any other ideas
wild4u2crazy4u (4:07:22 PM): hmm
radiohead_euphoria (4:07:42 PM): hrm
wild4u2crazy4u (4:09:01 PM): cooking
wild4u2crazy4u (4:09:02 PM): ?
radiohead_euphoria (4:10:05 PM): good idea, like recipies
wild4u2crazy4u (4:10:11 PM): exactly
radiohead_euphoria (4:11:39 PM): hororscopes
wild4u2crazy4u (4:11:52 PM): sure
radiohead_euphoria (4:14:38 PM): really off hororscopes, weird ones
radiohead_euphoria (4:22:30 PM): still there
wild4u2crazy4u (4:22:37 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (4:22:47 PM): hows homewerk
wild4u2crazy4u (4:22:58 PM): irritating
radiohead_euphoria (4:34:53 PM): yo
radiohead_euphoria (4:37:53 PM): hey accept the funny picture
wild4u2crazy4u (4:40:42 PM): funny
radiohead_euphoria (4:40:55 PM): innit though
radiohead_euphoria (4:46:30 PM): innit bootyful
wild4u2crazy4u (4:46:38 PM): o yea
radiohead_euphoria (4:52:24 PM): what was that *she exclaimed with great relish*
wild4u2crazy4u (4:52:44 PM): i' dunno it kicked me off
radiohead_euphoria (4:52:53 PM): mutherfalker
radiohead_euphoria (4:53:07 PM): still up for backgammon
wild4u2crazy4u (4:53:15 PM): nah
radiohead_euphoria (4:53:25 PM): take a break from homewerk
wild4u2crazy4u (4:53:46 PM): can't already took some
radiohead_euphoria (4:54:41 PM): literati is supp to bee good
wild4u2crazy4u (4:55:11 PM): dominos?
radiohead_euphoria (4:55:38 PM): sure
wild4u2crazy4u (4:56:46 PM): i hate evidence folders
radiohead_euphoria (4:57:10 PM): me too
radiohead_euphoria (5:02:22 PM): now it's time for.......name that constellation
wild4u2crazy4u (5:02:53 PM): \orien
radiohead_euphoria (5:03:27 PM): Yeeeees and the grand prize goes toooooooooooooo
radiohead_euphoria (5:03:44 PM): Rene'e'e'e'e'e'e'e'e'e'e'e'e'e'e'e'e'e!!!!!!!!!
radiohead_euphoria (5:06:56 PM): a really tough one for you folks
radiohead_euphoria (5:07:13 PM): *jeapordy music plays*
wild4u2crazy4u (5:07:23 PM): big dipper and i don't have time jess
wild4u2crazy4u (5:08:49 PM): oops, that was my mistake
radiohead_euphoria (5:09:15 PM): oh I'm sorry thats incorrect the answer we were looking for was little dipper but thank you very much for playing.
wild4u2crazy4u (5:09:27 PM): shut up
radiohead_euphoria (5:10:30 PM): Bob why don't you tell miss Gallison what she gets for coming on the show
radiohead_euphoria (5:11:32 PM): Well miss Gallison, you get to view the stars every night from the front seat of your
radiohead_euphoria (5:11:36 PM): brand
radiohead_euphoria (5:11:38 PM): new
radiohead_euphoria (5:11:43 PM): CAR!!!!!
wild4u2crazy4u (5:11:47 PM): cool
radiohead_euphoria (5:12:49 PM): The 1986 Classic Crystler LeBaron Convertible, engine not included
radiohead_euphoria (5:15:46 PM): Well thank you very much ladies and gentlemen we hope you enjoyed the show please join us next week for a brand new Name That Constellation right after Name That Farm Animal and followed by The Newly Divorced Show.
radiohead_euphoria (5:16:37 PM): I think I should create game shows for a living
radiohead_euphoria (5:19:20 PM): still there bddy
wild4u2crazy4u (5:19:29 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (5:19:43 PM): bzy?
wild4u2crazy4u (5:19:49 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (5:27:59 PM): I will paint you a picture
a picture of how life could be, when the world is set free, from this earthly suffering, and we shall rise above, and become gods of our painted paradise, and none shall worship, and none shall kneel, and all shall bask in the sunshine of our sweet reverie, and none shall bleed in our name
radiohead_euphoria (5:36:49 PM): And when Night comes with her purple legion none shall fear the deep, dark shadows and all the demons of childhood dream shall lay down their heads upon the soft, painted earth and sleep like angels and dream good dreams
radiohead_euphoria (5:39:16 PM): like it?
radiohead_euphoria (5:43:56 PM): I'm Gonna Go

later that day....

wild4u2crazy4u (9:22:30 PM): its crazy!
radiohead_euphoria (9:22:52 PM): You called are you in a better moood now
wild4u2crazy4u (9:23:09 PM): yea
radiohead_euphoria (9:23:30 PM): did you reed my poem
wild4u2crazy4u (9:23:38 PM): poem?
radiohead_euphoria (9:23:53 PM): I will paint you a picture, a picture of how life could be, when the world is set free from this earthly suffering and we shall rise above and become gods of our painted paradise and none shall worship and none shall kneel and all shall bask in the sunshine of our sweet reverie and none shall bleed in our name And when Night comes with her purple legion none shall fear the deep, dark shadows and all the demons of childhood dream shall lay down their heads upon the soft, painted earth and sleep like angels and dream good dreams
wild4u2crazy4u (9:24:54 PM): cool
radiohead_euphoria (9:25:30 PM): I wrote it while u were homewerking
wild4u2crazy4u (9:25:42 PM): way cool
radiohead_euphoria (9:25:56 PM): You like it?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:26:07 PM): yea
radiohead_euphoria (9:26:49 PM): I'm not much of a poet
wild4u2crazy4u (9:27:07 PM): nether am i did you read the contest 2?
radiohead_euphoria (9:27:32 PM): not yet my computer was being a bitch
radiohead_euphoria (9:27:38 PM): or well winamp was
wild4u2crazy4u (9:27:43 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (9:28:30 PM): I'm kiling ensighs
wild4u2crazy4u (9:28:43 PM): cool
radiohead_euphoria (9:29:45 PM): I like it
wild4u2crazy4u (9:29:58 PM): i read it?
radiohead_euphoria (9:31:05 PM): oh say say say
radiohead_euphoria (9:31:06 PM): oh say say say
radiohead_euphoria (9:31:07 PM): oh say say say
radiohead_euphoria (9:31:08 PM): oh say say say
radiohead_euphoria (9:31:09 PM): oh say say say
radiohead_euphoria (9:31:12 PM): wait
radiohead_euphoria (9:31:23 PM): they dont love you like I love you
radiohead_euphoria (9:31:26 PM): wait
radiohead_euphoria (9:31:28 PM): they dont love you like I love you
radiohead_euphoria (9:31:34 PM): maaaaaaaps
radiohead_euphoria (9:31:35 PM): maaaaaaaps
radiohead_euphoria (9:31:37 PM): maaaaaaaps
radiohead_euphoria (9:31:56 PM): wait
radiohead_euphoria (9:32:01 PM): they dont love you like I love you
radiohead_euphoria (9:32:03 PM): wait
radiohead_euphoria (9:32:04 PM): they dont love you like I love you
radiohead_euphoria (9:32:08 PM): maaaaaaaps
radiohead_euphoria (9:32:10 PM): wait
radiohead_euphoria (9:32:12 PM): they dont love you like I love you
radiohead_euphoria (9:32:27 PM): guess what Im listening to
wild4u2crazy4u (9:32:31 PM): check ur gmail
radiohead_euphoria (9:33:05 PM): omg I got something from someone named renee
radiohead_euphoria (9:33:15 PM): I wndr who that is?
radiohead_euphoria (9:33:21 PM):
wild4u2crazy4u (9:33:33 PM):
radiohead_euphoria (9:35:04 PM): I like the commercials
wild4u2crazy4u (9:35:09 PM): lol
radiohead_euphoria (9:35:12 PM): tehehe
wild4u2crazy4u (9:35:33 PM): how do you like "Taking a Chance"?
radiohead_euphoria (9:35:57 PM): It's good you should enter a contest
wild4u2crazy4u (9:36:19 PM): lol i am
radiohead_euphoria (9:36:36 PM):
radiohead_euphoria (9:43:36 PM): Y Control
radiohead_euphoria (9:43:38 PM): Y Control
radiohead_euphoria (9:43:44 PM): you
radiohead_euphoria (9:43:45 PM): walk
radiohead_euphoria (9:43:47 PM): walk
radiohead_euphoria (9:43:47 PM): walk
radiohead_euphoria (9:43:48 PM): walk
radiohead_euphoria (9:43:49 PM): walk
radiohead_euphoria (9:43:56 PM): guess what Im listening to
wild4u2crazy4u (9:44:23 PM): yeah yeah yeahs
radiohead_euphoria (9:46:35 PM): insurmountable am I spelling that write
wild4u2crazy4u (9:46:52 PM): i'm not sure
radiohead_euphoria (9:48:07 PM): how many syllables does that have?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:48:16 PM): dunno
radiohead_euphoria (9:48:41 PM): in-sur-moun-ta-ble 5 wright
radiohead_euphoria (9:48:50 PM): okay
radiohead_euphoria (9:49:01 PM): you wanna read my Haiku?
wild4u2crazy4u (9:49:06 PM): sure
radiohead_euphoria (9:49:25 PM): train rolls down the tracks one less shiny penny here insurmountable
wild4u2crazy4u (9:50:39 PM): heh
radiohead_euphoria (9:50:50 PM): weird huh
wild4u2crazy4u (9:50:57 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (9:51:17 PM): http://www.poetry.com/Haiku/RecordHaiku.asp
radiohead_euphoria (9:51:32 PM): nevermind don't
radiohead_euphoria (9:52:03 PM): whatcha doin
radiohead_euphoria (9:52:10 PM): /listening to
wild4u2crazy4u (9:52:32 PM): writing christmas carols
radiohead_euphoria (9:52:40 PM): kewl
wild4u2crazy4u (10:03:48 PM): boo
radiohead_euphoria (10:04:13 PM): AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wild4u2crazy4u (10:05:14 PM): huh?
radiohead_euphoria (10:05:48 PM): As endless sundays stretch by my lost whims
radiohead_euphoria (10:06:03 PM): to see the driven savage
radiohead_euphoria (10:06:16 PM): they laugh at her ending
radiohead_euphoria (10:08:42 PM): who spend their will in unseen frustration
radiohead_euphoria (10:22:02 PM): helloooooooo
wild4u2crazy4u (10:22:15 PM): hi
radiohead_euphoria (10:24:22 PM): play you tic tac toe
wild4u2crazy4u (10:24:51 PM): go
radiohead_euphoria (10:25:15 PM): go
radiohead_euphoria (10:26:46 PM): go
radiohead_euphoria (10:29:24 PM): go
radiohead_euphoria (10:30:33 PM): I think we know wher this is going
wild4u2crazy4u (10:31:04 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (10:31:32 PM): ahahahaha
radiohead_euphoria (10:31:48 PM): I cheeted!!!!!
wild4u2crazy4u (10:31:58 PM): yes
radiohead_euphoria (10:32:43 PM): I don't know what this game is
wild4u2crazy4u (10:33:08 PM): neitneither di i
wild4u2crazy4u (10:33:52 PM): *neitneither di i
wild4u2crazy4u (10:43:16 PM): wana quit?
radiohead_euphoria (10:43:31 PM): I have no idea how to play that game
wild4u2crazy4u (10:43:41 PM): neither di i
radiohead_euphoria (10:43:41 PM): lets try again
wild4u2crazy4u (10:56:28 PM): ok im tired of this game
wild4u2crazy4u (10:56:44 PM): i wanna get back to my writing
radiohead_euphoria (10:56:57 PM): ok
radiohead_euphoria (10:57:15 PM): I'll be playing in the Mud
wild4u2crazy4u (10:57:21 PM): ok